tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-165135952024-03-13T00:24:53.233-04:00Window Into My RealityWe all see the world differently, sometimes correctly, sometimes flawed. This is my slice of reality, My Secret Place...where I come to vent, to imagine and to muse, to ramble on about my trials large and small...amongst people who accept me with all my flaws and foibles...and read anyways.Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.comBlogger497125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-1642816786181990232013-10-19T15:54:00.001-04:002013-10-19T15:54:48.091-04:00MovingOk, I know it's not Monday, but I thought I ought to let folks know that I'm moving to a new blog. Well, I might still come here and vent once in a while. That was always the purpose of this particular blog. And that just won't fit with the new direction I need to go for my career.<br />
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So, if you want to keep up with that, come see me at <a href="http://robinjanney.blogspot.com/">A Novel Idea</a> Granted, not the most creative blog title ever, but for the time being it fits.<br />
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Life is good :)Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-13729073040666914362013-10-17T17:44:00.001-04:002013-10-17T17:44:26.769-04:00Google HangoutI just had my first Google+ Hangout today, which was pretty darn cool! Ever since my birthday, life has just been one adventure after another. I'm not sure what was special about this past birthday, but I'm not minding what life is bringing me!<br />
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So it was Jeff Roach from Sociallogical.com and it's about building a community of like believers etc. instead of traditional marketing. I'll end up signing up for their membership eventually, once Justin gets done working on his truck. Well, that might never happen...he's always working on one vehicle or another! But once that gets settled down, because I can learn on my own - I just need a few pointers to get me headed in the right direction.<br />
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One thing I took away from the Hangout was that I'm on the right track by beginning to blog again. He used an example of another author blogging about their area of expertise. Even though I write fiction, that's still something I can do to. I might not be an expert in anything, not even in writing, but I am an expert in my own writing LOL<br />
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I've been writing since I was in the third or fourth grade. I can remember my first stories...they were 'fanfiction' for a tv show I really liked back then. "Airwolf". Oh my goodness...I had such a childhood crush on the guy that played Stringfellow Hawke, Jan-Michael Vincent! My writing has gotten much better since then...thank God! All by villains were names "Bad John" or "Bad Kelly" etc. While of course their counterparts were "Good John" and "Good Kelly" LOL<br />
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So, "Farmer's Daughter" the novel I so impulsively self-published...because I decided I believed in it. It is actually based on a dream I had in either 1997 or 98. I really don't remember which, just that I was still working as a nurses aide when I was doing the first free writes for it. It changed drastically from those first free writes, and that's a good thing. The original idea had Craig being hesitant to build a relationship with Angela because he was afraid of a sexual discrimination lawsuit, but out of the free writes evolved the idea that it was <i>actually </i>because he'd been sexually molested as a teen. Some of the villains were re-"casted" since then as well...which is going to turn out to be really cool in the long run.<br />
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After I finished it, about 2005ish according to my email records, I hit writer's block. I had ended it in a cliff hanger - the kidnapping mentioned in the synopsis, and then I hit that brick wall. Well crap, now what? I tried starting a sequel, but didn't get anything. I was able to write a few poems here and there, but it was like the pond had dried up. So, I let it sit idle in my email until last April when I decided to download it and reread it to see if it was any good. And it was, it is. But I still didn't like the ending. So, I tacked on a new ending, that went a different direction and opened the flood gates not just for a sequel but for a series of either 3-5 books. It'll probably be 5, but I don't want to bore people so we'll see.<br />
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For right now, I think I'll stick to the Monday/Thursday posting and see how it goes. Back in the old days, I used to write a blog post everyday. Not sure I have the time for that anymore. Still learning, which is good. :)<br />
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For now. I have to go make supper!<br />
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<br />Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-57526316317462941362013-10-14T17:56:00.000-04:002013-10-14T17:56:34.024-04:00CommitmentSo I read this advice article about how to make the most of your blog. It said something about posting about twice a week, preferably on Mondays and Thursdays. Not sure why she said those two days, but it sounds like a plan to me!<br />
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I'm still trying to figure out ways to get my novel out there so that it sells. Everyone who has spoke to me about reading it tells me the same, that it's a great book, they can't put it down and they want more! Encouraging, definitely! And you know what? I'm glad I'm not the only one that these characters speak to!<br />
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Last I checked, I had four reviews on Amazon. I know who three of them are, my one sister, a friend at work, and a friend here in the trailer court. Of course, that one has to make a big deal about how she got to read it before it was published. Talk about tooting her own horn! Apparently she doesn't realize she wasn't the first, just the most recent! Oh well, whatever makes her feel good I guess.<br />
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Farmer's Daughter, available for <a href="http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00F7UHM22">Kindle</a> and as a <a href="https://www.createspace.com/4449116">paperback</a>, is a mix of genres...a little Romance, a little Urban Fantasy.<br />
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<br />Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-45292563338926441872013-10-05T09:53:00.000-04:002013-10-05T09:53:18.730-04:00Paperback AvialableWell, there is now a paperback version of my novel available. It can be purchased directly from CreateSpace <a href="https://www.createspace.com/4449116">Here</a> and will be available on Amazon.com as well. I don't have a link there yet as it's not up yet.<br />
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idk what else to say really. I'm excited, nervous all at once. It's a good book, I've gotten plenty of good reports from people on Facebook who've read it. A lot say that they can't put it down. I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one who can't pull themselves out of the story once they start reading it. Craig and Angela's life consumes me...scenes from their life together just keep replaying in my head. Makes work go by a little bit quicker. lol<br />
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Of course, it's frustrating at work, because I have all this great stuff floating around in my head and I no longer dare write on the back of my breakdown sheet during the 'slow times' because the bosses are getting anal about who'd not working hard enough during those times. Really? Where are those pricks when we are busting our asses to get the product off the line? When I have to pull my stuff and my neighbor's stuff because she's off on the other side getting leakers off the line because we're freaking buried with them? Where are they then? Oh, they don't care then. God forbid we ever get a break. They tell us to take 'micro-breaks' as often as possible...but just don't get caught doing them. Sorry for the rant but I have really low respect for supervisors and bosses who NEVER jump in and help when the going gets rough and cracks the whip when the going gets easy.<br />
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But, I'm home now...relaxing with the hubby who loves me and is proud of what I've accomplished. He has such great expectations of me :)<br />
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<br />Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-83748767451732947412013-09-22T21:35:00.001-04:002013-09-22T21:35:23.220-04:00Exciting TimesWell, my days have certainly been exciting recently. Ever since I got married, I've been doing all sorts of impulsive things lol<br />
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Not only is my novel available on Amazon.com for $3.50 <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Farmers-Daughter-Country-Collection-ebook/dp/B00F7UHM22/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1379371172&sr=1-1&keywords=robin+Janney">Farmer's Daughter</a> but it will be available in paperback too once I get the proof copy, well, proofed. It should be in the mail as early as next Monday.<br />
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I can't begin to say how excited I am! It's crazy to self publish...but I have nothing to lose, so why not!Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-6520849518905526722013-09-17T20:11:00.001-04:002013-09-22T21:35:30.788-04:00My NovelFree this week, my novel: <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Farmers-Daughter-Country-Collection-ebook/dp/B00F7UHM22/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1379371172&sr=1-1&keywords=robin+Janney">Farmer's Daughter by Robin Janney</a><br />
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More later. Promise. I have to get to bed lolCierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-58589482331774302982013-08-09T16:21:00.001-04:002013-08-09T16:21:37.050-04:00United<br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfFHQ5BQLy2iG8xAZEsHpY48madh5abuYu1X9TFzkVotCotDcdA5Lap-RNdsLaHqsm7WuN4nPmgtwJVqkFh3Zjhrb7yjHYK5MRBqxJdMG2tNr7L51KhNp7fFoujyKCa-Vh_2oN/s640/blogger-image-1850075793.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfFHQ5BQLy2iG8xAZEsHpY48madh5abuYu1X9TFzkVotCotDcdA5Lap-RNdsLaHqsm7WuN4nPmgtwJVqkFh3Zjhrb7yjHYK5MRBqxJdMG2tNr7L51KhNp7fFoujyKCa-Vh_2oN/s640/blogger-image-1850075793.jpg"></a></div>Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-14807897111808281662013-08-02T12:39:00.001-04:002013-08-02T12:39:50.864-04:00Going to the Chapel<span xmlns=''><p>Okay, so I'm not really going to the chapel. Just the local Justice of the Peace. Tomorrow afternoon my partner of almost five years and I are legally tying the knot and getting married.<br /></p><p>I am: excited, nervous, flouting on cloud nine, and brain dead all at once. I can't believe that he's finally changed his mind about marriage, but I can see how happy he is now that he's decided to go ahead with it. I didn't even believe him until we bought the marriage license on Wednesday (Pennsylvania has a three day waiting period).<br /></p><p>It all started Saturday after his great-grandmother's funeral. We stood around his parent's truck with his parents discussing marriage. Which for the past few years has been in his ballpark as I've been asking him on and off if he'd marry me LOL! And then on the way home conversation followed, not all of it happy. We may have sat in the same room for a few minutes and then I just went to the bedroom and watched TV for a while. Even our trip to TOPS later was really quiet. I mean, really really quiet. He didn't even say a word when I set a container of brownies in the cart, and he always has a comment for that kind of stuff.<br /></p><p>Monday I went to work like usually, anxiously anticipating the end of the day as after that I was going to be on vacation for the rest of the week (YAY!) and for some reason I checked our bank account at lunch time. I saw he had bought stuff off eBay (he's always doing stuff like that, a little irritating) and I just figured it was truck parts. But I asked anyway…and he wouldn't tell me! So then I just figured that it was something for my birthday.<br /></p><p>Well, I didn't want to wait until Wednesday, who would lol, so I started being cute and 'hounding' him a little. He wouldn't give. Until we were on our way out to dinner, our favorite Buffet, and he hands me his iPhone and says, "Alright, go to eBay." I tease him a little, but he insisted so I looked…he had purchased wedding bands!<br /></p><p>!!!!!!!<br /></p><p>"Are you serious?" I asked.<br /></p><p>"Yeah."<br /></p><p>But he didn't officially ask me until Wednesday…because again I was teasing him that he hadn't actually asked yet and was just taking it for granted. And I still didn't really believe him until we purchased the wedding license! LOL! After living together for 4 years, why wait and fuss with a wedding I don't have time or patience for?<br /></p><p>I'm just hoping he doesn't fuss to much over the picture taking! LOL<br /></p></span>Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-48662006641910455102013-04-03T21:03:00.001-04:002013-04-03T21:03:05.913-04:00QuickieWell, just a quick note to say that I've just discovered the Blogger app....and for some reason it makes me exceedingly happy. It makes blogging from my iPhone easier. Especially for poetry.<br />
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I was reading about the payroll taxes going up 2% earlier today and I realized that if we get a 2% cost of living raise in June like we did last year...I'll only go back to bringing home what I was last year. Unless the company is doing well and we get a 3% raise like the year before. But since we barely hit 33 hours this past week (8 of which were holiday pay) it's not looking good. Maybe it'll turn around though, it has before.<br />
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At least with 33 hours next paycheck will be better than this last one. Because bad weather made travel difficult...and my ride chickened out, and my backup plan failed, I missed one day Christmas week that resulted in me losing 3 days pay. I lost holiday pay for Christmas and the day after, and the day I missed. So my paycheck was only $70. :( Spent already, on groceries...didn't even get everything we wanted. I knew it was going to be lean, so I'll just have to suck it up. I'm still kinda peeved about the whole thing, because there really should have been a delayed start to work that day. Cargill did it for hurricane Sandy when she came through, but apparently snow isn't that big of a deal! Right. Oh well.<br />
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I see my OBGYN on Wednesday and am trying not to be nervous about it. I'm afraid I'm in for a surgery, to remove the fibroid tumor...and as much as I want it taken care of, I don't want surgery as I dream coming out of it. I"m not sure why that bothers me, but it does.<br />
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My Aunt's surgery that was scheduled for Tuesday has been postponed. They did an MRI on her Friday and they found 'something else' other than the one lump. So now she has to have another biopsy before she can have surgery. She doesn't even know what they found.<br />
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Life goes on.<br />
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ttyl.Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-10424112035034417612013-01-02T17:36:00.000-05:002013-01-02T17:37:19.435-05:00A day lateSo here I am a day late to say, "Happy New Year!"<br />
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Didn't do much for New Years Eve...had a glass of wine at a friend's house and was in bed by 9:30 and was out before 10:30! How time has changed me! I used to have no problem staying up that late...ever! I used to work nightshift for crying out loud!<br />
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Ah well. Hopefully this year will have more good than bad, though one never knows. I've had an aunt diagnosed with breast cancer, allegedly a non-hereditary version (I've never heard of that). My brother Duane is to have his gallbladder out, and was served divorce papers just before Christmas (nice...not). And I've been diagnosed with multiple ovarian cysts and a fibroid tumor...nothing to worry about I've been told, but that doesn't stop the stray thoughts of worry that cross my mind every once in a while! I see an OBGYN next week to discuss my options. Oh yay.<br />
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But things could be worse, so I can't complain too much!<br />
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ttyl pplsCierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-17863549694088718142012-12-11T18:22:00.003-05:002012-12-11T18:22:58.069-05:00ThoughtsJust rambling tonight.<br />
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Our hours are dropping off at work. Which is both good and bad. It's good because 45+ hours a week gets old after a while, so exhausting especially in 40 degree weather lol and it's also good because my lokcing fingers don't lock quite as often or as hard as they were. Well, they don't hurt as much anyway lol! And it's bad because those paychecks were awful dang nice! Like everyone else, I need the money honey! Especially since Justin's main 'job' is playing Halo Wars all the time. At least he's begun helping do some chores around the house...'women's work' my ass!<br />
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This is sad. I think all day of stuff that I want to write and blog, and then I get here and I'm just like "Blah" and there's nothing there. Of course, Justin's moved his Xbox in here so it's not quiet anymore. But the flip side of that is that I can go to sleep without having to listen to him playing. I could do without his music, but it's not overly loud so I'm not going to say anything...it's just hitting that menstrual nerve lol<br />
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There's a whole nightmare in and of itself. Ever since the beginning of October, my period's been totally whacked (sorry guys). It could be any number of things, from my thyroid being off - as usual - to fibroid tumors! Oye! Well, the thyroid meds were upped and there's been no change. I've had a pap and that came back normal. So what we did now, that I'm waiting for the results of, was an ultrasound. And I go see and endocrynologist next Friday. I mean, seriously, I've been bleeding for close 2 weeks this time around. Like last time. Time before that was 3 weeks. I don't have to money to spend on this stuff! Very annoying.<br />
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Christmas is coming and sadly I think we're going to have to be lean on the gifts this year. I know that's not what Christmas is about, but it's still bothers me. Especially since I know there are people out there that have gotten me gifts that I'm not going to be able to reciprocate. :/<br />
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I guess that'll be all for tonight. Now that I've found my computer chair again, maybe I'll be posting more often! lol<br />
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Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-30433927484330315142012-10-27T19:10:00.000-04:002012-10-27T19:11:03.456-04:00CowardiceI am sometimes, often, disgusted at my own cowardice. My inability to say what I'm really thinking, or feeling, about a matter to the person involved.<br />
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If I could, I would say to the company doctor treating my locking fingers...seriously, it's been almost a month, they're not getting better in fact it's been getting worse since I started getting treatment and therapy; you have not taken me off my job, so my fingers aren't getting the break they need. And the medicine you've prescribed, which is supposed to be better than ibuprofen...SUCKS! I am in more pain since starting it and experience more swelling.<br />
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To my red hat (supervisor), who isn't really my red hat and only a substitute, who wants me to bring in a doctors note to verify that I'm actually going to the doctors Monday afternoon...even though I'm not leaving until last break, so a note really isn't required: seriously man, not all doctors appointments can be scheduled in advance. Some things can only be done while the conditions are right and given how unpredictable my body is at the moment, it's best to do things as quickly as possible before I start bleeding again.<br />
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To my friend, who can't go to the store by herself, what is there to say? Grow up! Yes you've done a lot for me, and I'm grateful beyond words...but I get so tired of feeling like I'm holding your hand just so you can go to the store. And your boyfriend isn't committed to you if he can't move back in and share expenses...he's only there for booty. I don't care that he's co-owner of a farm, if he loved you and was committed to you, he would be doing something more than 'date night' three times a week. And don't ever tell me what to have for dinner when I've already told you what I was eating...already fixed and simmering in the slow cooker...<br />
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I am so disgusted that I let her do that..."I'm going to eat a bowl of chili and be over," I said to her. She only lives across the yard; got to love trailer parks. It would have been maybe ten, fifteen minutes. "No, you know what, I've got leftover spaghetti in the fridge. Come on over now and you can have that." Really? And yellow belly me just said, after looking longingly at my chili, sighing only in my head, "Ok."<br />
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I don't know. Like I said, I'm so disgusted with myself recently. Maybe I'll grow a spine someday.Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-39792556945461953512012-09-29T18:32:00.000-04:002012-09-29T18:32:02.928-04:00What a day!I hate when something that should only take a short time, suddenly blossoms into an all day affair. Ok, it was only 4 hours, but still it should have been shorter. Ah well, I guess that's the price we pay for friendship sometimes. I shouldn't complain I guess...I did get taken to the places I needed and was treated to lunch, but it wasn't the plans that I had for the day. Which mainly involved staying home, playing on the computer and hanging with my man.<br />
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Yes, this friend is a great help to me...going above and beyond really. But at the same time, she asks for help she doesn't really need. She wanted me to stay and help her put some weather stripping around her door. All I did was cut one piece and throw the trash away. She did 99.9% on her own. Idk sometimes.<br />
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She asked for my help again tomorrow, taking an air conditioner out. Which I'm more than willing to do...I just wish it could have all been done today. Sometimes I just want to stay home.<br />
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It's been long. At least I wasn't at work! I got to sleep in. Warm and cuddly. I can catnap in the mornings after I wake up, something I guess Justin's not able to do. I'm not sure if that's really a good thing to do, but it feels good at the time! lol!<br />
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Gonna keep this short as I want to go be with Justin for a while.<br />
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ttyl.Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-32287504592892883722012-09-27T19:10:00.001-04:002012-09-27T19:10:55.554-04:00SuspenseThe suspense is killing us! Ok, it's not quite that bad. But close.<br />
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I mean really, today was Thursday...and they still aren't sure if we're working this Saturday or not? Someone is certainly playing their cards close to their chest. How lame.<br />
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Not much interesting is going on at the moment. I only get on the computer a few times a week, I hop between working on my Zion story from my other website and my Dragon Dream story. I don't know if that's good or not, the hopping, but since I'm not into new material yet, it's probably 'ok' lol!<br />
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Well, I did do an online application for Justin. Since he won't do them himself. Not that I can overly blaim him. They seem to take longer online for some reason. I only did the Kmart one and that took about an hour. The Dollar General one said that it could take from 30-60 minutes and since it's already 7pm and I want to relax some more before bed, I decided that could wait until tomorrow! Lol<br />
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I've started reading the Wheel of Time series from the beginning in anticipation of the last book coming out in January (if the world doesn't end first!) I know I'll lose interest at about book 7 or 8, but if I can press through it becomes interesting again lol! I can't believe how long they let Jordan drag the series out, but at least they found someone decent to finish up for him, seeing how he died first :( Ah well<br />
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Off for the night. ttyl :)Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-48670824632443178082012-09-21T18:22:00.001-04:002012-09-21T18:23:05.517-04:00Caught Up?Oh my! A two day weekend! We haven't had one of those since Labor Day weekend...which was supposed to be a three day weekend, but of course we had to work on Saturday. But not this weekend! We're free! Caught up enough on the cows that have been killed. Wonder how long it will last. I did NOT mind the PAY...the overtime rocked! I am going to miss that part. But not the actual hours! lol!<br />
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I've got a wedding to go to tomorrow, so it is a blessing that we have it off. My cousin Kathy's son is getting married, which for that branch of the family is usually a once in a lifetime deal. I haven't met the bride yet, but that's ok. I'll meet her tomorrow.<br />
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It's sad when your cellphone works better and faster than your computer! lol! Oh well. this is better than nothing! Off to write in my dragon story.<br />
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ttyl :)Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-87077852758446091662012-09-19T16:59:00.000-04:002012-09-19T16:59:24.863-04:00We will seeSo, I have a computer again. Sort of. It's a tower that Justin's mother gave us. I'm not sure about it, but it seems to work. SLOW. But it works and that is all that matters! (we'll see how long it lasts! lol )<br />
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So, I'll be able to blog again. Write some poems, shorts stories maybe. Blog boring tidbits of my life.<br />
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Like how I had to fill out paperwork today to document that my fingers like to lock up at home. It's not like Cargill is going to do anything about it. I'm still on the same job, for the same length of time. No rotation at all. Like there should be. I do get to hot wax my hands on every break - the right one on first and last break and the left one on lunch break. And I'm supposed to do hot and cold water contrast baths here at home. My sinks aren't even free because nobody does dishes! lol!<br />
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And that's about it. Gonna sign off to go have dinner at a friends. Trying out sloppy cheeseburgers. They sound good. But her boyfriend didn't like them and she's getting a second opinion! lol<br />
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Catch y'all later! :)Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-20417503000160659452012-05-30T08:00:00.000-04:002012-05-30T08:00:07.974-04:00Wednesday 5/30/2012<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWlJV60cAO4GeY29v5rU3Xc3L3T8ji3dHl2dM-rlN2jmg0q6zpRiq3g-q8MtmyLu-4j6eO7vrS9CmxYQpCjggFiI4QfIwP6xjOqvBpYGFGZWuh_w24yRyzDE_OLLj260zTsQD0/s1600/fruity.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="320" width="239" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWlJV60cAO4GeY29v5rU3Xc3L3T8ji3dHl2dM-rlN2jmg0q6zpRiq3g-q8MtmyLu-4j6eO7vrS9CmxYQpCjggFiI4QfIwP6xjOqvBpYGFGZWuh_w24yRyzDE_OLLj260zTsQD0/s320/fruity.jpg" /></a></div><br />Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-26079616323600180422012-05-27T14:58:00.001-04:002012-05-27T14:58:37.241-04:00Memorial DayIt is never a bad thing to stop and remember those who fought and died for people they never knew. Without their sacrifice, who knows what kind of country we would live in today. Granted, we are not a perfect country. But we are a free country.<br />
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I have never had a family member, that I am aware of, actually die in combat. But I have had plenty serve in one branch or another. My sister Glenda was in the Army Reserves; she served in Honduras, and the Gulf War. My brother-in-law Larry was in the Air Force; I don't think he served during combat but I know he was stationed in Japan for a time, as well as various U.S. bases. My Uncle Eddy, who passed two February's ago, also served in the Army and was stationed in Japan, and Guam. My Great-Uncle Larry was also in the military, but Mom can't remember for sure what branch.<br />
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I am so grateful for ancestors long ago who fought and died so that today I could sit in my kitchen, typing on my borrowed laptop, without fear. Police will not break into my home because I've broken some silly law, like cutting my hair short or wearing pants (capri's really), and I can sip my lukewarm coffee while the air conditioner hums and Justin plays X-box with a thankful heart.<br />
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They did not die in vain.Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-92006727486744404342012-05-25T20:43:00.002-04:002012-05-25T20:44:32.274-04:00YEAH baby!Well, what a relief! Even though we have Monday off, we don't have to work tomorrow so we get a three day weekend...the MAP room is not as lucky :( Of course, there's nothing saying that they won't make us work next Saturday to make up for it, but that's not here yet so this girl is NOT going to worry about it!<br />
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That's actually one thing I like about my job at Cargill, almost the only thing, that once I clock out and leave for the day, the place doesn't worry me one bit. I'm not 'on call' just in case something breaks, I can go away and not have to leave phone numbers with anyone, I don't have to stay any later than 3pm except by a few minutes (I clocked out at 3:05 today). And I don't worry about something not being done right. I just shrug at the end of the day and say, "I'll worry about it tomorrow/Monday." It's such a relief!<br />
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Speaking of relief, I've 'shaved' my head again this year. Justin does it for me. We don't take it all the way down to scalp, though it's pretty close. I'm not getting a lot of flack from co-workers, at least nothing's been said to my face lol! My one sister is giving me grief though. Trying to quote the bible to me about long hair...and getting it wrong...and then being told, "I guess it depends on what version you read." I don't know about her, but I read New King James...it flows a bit better without the "thee's and thou's". The bible doesn't say that a woman <strong><em>has</em></strong> to have long hair, just that if she does it is her glory. Written by a man who never had long hair to deal with lol!! BUT that verse needs to be read in context, because once he's done, Paul said that we're to judge for ourselves, that he has no such <strong><em>custom</em></strong> and neither does the church...the verse is nestled in a chapter about head coverings. So it's not just about hair, but prayer caps as well. And Paul tells us to decide for ourselves about that too. But of course, we all have this need to feel ourselves more spiritual than the rest, so we pick a verse out and run with it.<br />
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I'm not saying I'm perfect. Far from it. I've grown less judgmental over the years. People are ... people. And Jesus is far more understanding and forgiving of our humanity than we are ourselves.<br />
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But that's just my opinion. What do I know? lol!!!<br />
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Justin and I went to the movies this afternoon, we watched The Avengers. Totally rocks. It was my second time as I went with my friend Jackie a couple weekends ago. It would have been better if the movie hadn't quit stopping. Our theater hasn't upgraded to digital yet, and they still use film and I guess it was getting tangled or something like that. It was pissing Justin off to no end - he so has to learn to relax and take that kind of stuff with a grain of humor because crap happens ya know! lol Oh well. I guess they're upgrading this fall. It won't be soon enough!!<br />
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Gonna go lay down for a bit, just tired today as well. I'll try to catch up more later, I have so much I wanna say and not enough energy.<br />
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ttyl.Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-90537283618512303802012-05-16T06:00:00.000-04:002012-05-16T06:00:03.280-04:00Wednesday 5/16<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQflKNMEfPPaODSm6UIQevgZ27HmCqpqaVhyphenhyphenKC5FR7klu4dD3zhbjUqkGRC5tHZW0BHclB8Yyo7PHEx45VDde6ybXjENsTVkMvmIFDgZpS7N6t1TfeHv63XAy7hXy_5hIV6pd1/s1600/photo+%25282%2529.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="320" width="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQflKNMEfPPaODSm6UIQevgZ27HmCqpqaVhyphenhyphenKC5FR7klu4dD3zhbjUqkGRC5tHZW0BHclB8Yyo7PHEx45VDde6ybXjENsTVkMvmIFDgZpS7N6t1TfeHv63XAy7hXy_5hIV6pd1/s320/photo+%25282%2529.JPG" /></a></div><br />Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16513595.post-77729429981358255012012-05-13T06:00:00.000-04:002012-05-13T06:00:07.631-04:00Happy...Happy Mother's Day to all you mothers out there!<br />
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<br /><span style="color: red;">my mom and her cat! <3</span></div>Cierahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06193974545066147524noreply@blogger.com0