Window Into My Reality

While this particular blog that you're reading isn't a year old, today is my one year blogaversary. Has it really been a year since I started posting my ventings, my angst, my dreams and hopes online? It's only been since September that I've been writing here in My Secret Place, but I started the Amazing Grace one on April 29th 2005. My first post read: "Wow {that was the most impressive title!!} I have no idea what I am doing...this is an experiment of grand porportions. I am a nobody from nowhere...knowing that I am a somebody...because I know that Jesus died on the cross for me...We'll see what comes from this. In the meantime, as Chief says in his email signoffs....Blessings!" Changes since then: I no longer talk with Chief at all...he's the praise and worship leader of my church who thought I was propositioning him last August. {eyeball roll} What an ego---I was so very tempted that I would never do that to him {or with him} as I had a full blown ...

Monopoly. In my previous comment to Jean-Luc about board games, I said that the board game Monopoly had some bitter-sweet memories attached to it. It's what 3 of us kids were playing when we got the phone call that our father had died. I can't play it without thinking of that moment...and him. He was far from the perfect father...but he was the one I was given. That said, who'd like to buy Boardwalk?

Mimi gave an open tag to whoever wanted to do the meme about 5 random thoughts about myself. I could not resist... 1. I really don't like driving school bus. It's not that I don't like the kids...I love them...I love their chatter...their innocence...their laughter...even their singing which drives me bonkers. It's the red tape of Headstart and their inability to communicate changes and stuff to me. And the pressure of having all those little lives in my care during a snow or ice storm is too much to handle. 2. I adore listening to Chip Ingram's radio program, Living on the Edge. He is a bible teacher who is practical and grounded and balanced. Yes, balanced. There have been many times that it has been his voice over the radio that has kept me from harm and talked me out of despair. He's funny too, and not afraid to show his humanity. 3. I like to play Scrabble. Like, I get competative about it. Mom and I used to play it on Playstation2 and we'd be at it for...

Ok...I don' t get this. My church has a simple rule about men ministering to women and vice versa...you know, praying for them, like, during an altar call...that is, it doesn't happen without a third person present. Simple right? Well, last Sunday I had a man approach me and said that he wanted to "share his abundance" with me. I had just about every warning flag that a woman has go up in an instant. First of all, this guy is kind of creepy. Second, when I told him that I wasn't comfortable with this happening away from other people [which he specified...it couldn't be done in front of people]...he argued it with me..."But God told me too." I was a bit rude...or blunt perhaps..."No, He didn't." Hello, it's against rules. Anyway, before it was over and done with, Pastor was involved...I know I didn't handle it right...I should have told Pastor then and there what was going on...but I didn't...I just told the guy that I had an...

Just a little......honest......LOL!!! You Are 60% Addicted to Blogthings You're a Blogthings fiend - addicted but not totally dependent. So what if you know your personality type by heart? And while you may feel like Blogthings is crack... There are people much worse off than you! How Addicted To Blogthings Are You?

Ciera took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of exp..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Sort of....I recently had a friend take some pics of me so that I could send them to a friend, and she did it on her digital camera and it suddenly hit me...why not share what I look like with the entire blogger world??? Well, I can think of a couple different reasons, but my friend would scold me!!! :)

Another one, just for kicks as these things amuse me... Your Birthdate: July 31 You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good. You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship. In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing. Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you. Your strength: Your dependability Your weakness: You hate being alone Your power color: Midnight blue Your power symbol: Shell Your power month: April What Does Your Birth Date Mean? And Jean-Luc...yours was very interesting!! LOL

I'm bored, can you tell? Your Brain's Pattern You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Easter was ok. There wasn't as much fighting as there was at Christmas, so it was an ok day. Church was good, I didn't fall during our dance. I slept in today since there was no school. I'll have to get up tomorrow at the regular grindmill time. Blech. Not much else to report. I'm tired from our all night prayer meeting on Friday night. I'm hungry. I have to do the dance again tonight [praying that I don't fall or drop anything].

Happy Easter all...or Resurrection Sunday depending on your preference. Have a great day. Jesus is ALIVE!!!! YAY!!!!

I love these things..... The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Well, when it comes to friends, it seems I just pecked the surface didn't I? Here's what the readers had to say: 1. Nienke reminded me about Acquaintances . These are people you rub up against in the work place, at school, church, or about town...they're friendly and y'all get along well...and maybe are potential for a deeper friendship, but most just stay at the fringes of your life. 2. Jean-Luc reminded me of Best Friends . These are exactly what the words imply. They're the ones you tell your secrets to, and who's secrets you hear and neither of you ever share. You love each other even though you know the worst about each other. These are usually Oak Tree Friends. 3. Vanx used the term Buick Friends . He described them as: "Fast, solid, sassy, down the road, and expensive to maintain." 4. Claude wondered how to classify those people who considered him their friend while he doesn't regard them as such in return. I call those people in my life...

The other night, the friend that I watch tv and movies with was sharing something she had learned from a MOPS meeting. About the two different types of friends. Since that discussion, I've realized that there are at least 2 more types of friends and goofball that I am, I thought I'd share it all with you! Don't you feel lucky and special? :) 1. Mushroom Friends : These friends spring up over night and are in our lives just for a season. Kind of like the friends I made in school. The season is way over as I didn't even get Christmas cards from them this year [yes, I sent them cards]. 2. Oak Tree Friends : These friendships develop slowly, starting out small and laying down deep root systems. They last forever no matter how far apart the friends grow; time, distance, oceans and death cannot break the bond of friendship. They are the kind that years after being out of communication, if they heard you were in trouble {death in family, illness, etc...} they would drop stuff...

Ok. Got a new segment of the Trek story put up. It's been a slow rainy day..well, I take that back the sun just poke its nose through the clouds. Still been slow. I was out late last night watching movies at a friend's house [a different one]. We watch "The Notebook" and "Flightplan". And when her husband came home, he shared his chocolate dipped mint Oreo cookies! Yum! Had dance practice this morning. We're getting ready for our Easter presentation. Practice would go so much easier if that one didn't have to fret so much. Just relax...we don't have to have everything down pat today...that's why it's called "practice"! Waiting on my phone call from England, which I managed to almost type wrong again, Jean-Luc, no doubt making you smile. Afterwards, I shall dump the trash here at the library and then go home and do laundry---YIPPEE!!! LOL!