Window Into My Reality

So here I am a day late to say, "Happy New Year!" Didn't do much for New Years Eve...had a glass of wine at a friend's house and was in bed by 9:30 and was out before 10:30!  How time has changed me!  I used to have no problem staying up that late...ever!  I used to work nightshift for crying out loud! Ah well.  Hopefully this year will have more good than bad, though one never knows.  I've had an aunt diagnosed with breast cancer, allegedly a non-hereditary version (I've never heard of that).  My brother Duane is to have his gallbladder out, and was served divorce papers just before Christmas (nice...not).  And I've been diagnosed with multiple ovarian cysts and a fibroid tumor...nothing to worry about I've been told, but that doesn't stop the stray thoughts of worry that cross my mind every once in a while!  I see an OBGYN next week to discuss my options.  Oh yay. But things could be worse, so I can't complain too much! ttyl ppls

Just rambling tonight. Our hours are dropping off at work.  Which is both good and bad.  It's good because 45+ hours a week gets old after a while, so exhausting especially in 40 degree weather lol and it's also good because my lokcing fingers don't lock quite as often or as hard as they were.  Well, they don't hurt as much anyway lol! And it's bad because those paychecks were awful dang nice!  Like everyone else, I need the money honey!  Especially since Justin's main 'job' is playing Halo Wars all the time.  At least he's begun helping do some chores around the house...'women's work' my ass! This is sad.  I think all day of stuff that I want to write and blog, and then I get here and I'm just like "Blah" and there's nothing there.  Of course, Justin's moved his Xbox in here so it's not quiet anymore.  But the flip side of that is that I can go to sleep without having to listen to him playing.  I could do wi...

I've been having a rough week. Well, when it comes to work, it's been a run of a couple rough weeks. But for some reason, I've been missing the loved ones I've lost recently. Maybe it's just hormones, or the weather or the time of year. It'll pass I know. I just gotta ride it out! lol! Justin and I went to the movies this afternoon, we watched The Avengers. Totally rocks. It was my second time as I went with my friend Jackie a couple weekends ago. It would have been better if the movie hadn't quit stopping. Our theater hasn't upgraded to digital yet, and they still use film and I guess it was getting tangled or something like that. It was pissing Justin off to no end - he so has to learn to relax and take that kind of stuff with a grain of humor because crap happens ya know! lol Oh well. I guess they're upgrading this fall. It won't be soon enough!! Gonna go lay down for a bit, just tired today as well. I'll try to catch ...

What else is there to say?  At least my head has finally stopped bothering me, for the moment.  It's ached the past two days. Not much going on at the moment, so why I feel the need to post, I don't know.  The dog is whining for attention.  The boyfriend is in the bedroom playing Halo Wars.  I'm on the borrowed laptop making up for lost blogging time. I do have a few posts in mind, but I'll probably get to them later this weekend.  I'm about ready to go veg!  lol

Well, here we are. It's another Saturday, and I'm not getting to do what I want. All I really wanted to do for the past two weekends all I've wanted to do is veg out in front of our computer and work on my one story. But life has intervened and I've had to do other things. Last weekend...I got wrangled into cleaning and chores...lol! This weekend Justin and I ... ok, mostly Justin ... are at his parents to use their internet connection to figure out why the white Xbox is not playing the games that he moved there correctly. Something to do with the system settings no doubt. My birthday was ok, had a family reunion that day and everything was pleasant enough. I shaved my head about 3 weeks ago, and have been loving the lighter cooler head. OF course, a lot of people think I'm whacked...or that I look like a cancer patient. I think it is sad that I live in a society in which a woman can't get a buzz cut for comfort without people having to make commen...

Well, the best news is that Justin has a job! It's not exactly "new" job, he's gone back to work at the Daily as a pressman. Which unfortunately means that he's on nightshift while I'm on days ... part of me says, BOOOO!!! .... Part of me says, Thank you Jesus! It's a job, which means that there's going to be more money coming into the household again, and since they're paying him more than when he left, it's not that big of a paydrop...although they're not paying him what he's worth, but then they never do. We start couples counseling tomorrow night...if he doesn't back out. He's a stubborn proud man who wants to fix his own problems, but we've been living together for 2 years now and instead of his temper getting better, each episode - however sporadic - is getting worse. I can relate as I used to have a very bad temper myself, I was horrible. I realize that I've got a good 10 years on him, but I was around his ...

Sigh. What a long week that was. I'm so beat. Of course, it doesn't help that I didn't sleep at all well last night and because Justin had to go to work, the alarm went off too early this morning and it took me forever to get back to sleep. Wednesday was the longest day because we had that storm and a lot of people called in. They made us work a full day anyway. We were in our easy grades almost all day, which equals slow and boring and cold. Packing meat is cold work anyway, but when you're not pulling that much a off the line, it really gets to you more. Mom had a macroplastique done yesterday at the hospital. The doctor injected chemicals around the top of her urethra in the hopes to puff it up to stop the constant leaking. She'll know probably by tomorrow whethe it worked or not, the nurse said she shouldn't be upset at any leaking still because she has to give those parts time to settle down from being poked. I hope it works because if it doesn't...

I's tired. Yes, I know that's not proper English. But that's ok. Cuz it's the truth! lol! I was so pampered at the Daily, and we've had such short weeks at Carill recently that I don't know what it's like to work an 8 hours day! We put one in yesterday though and another today. Don't know about tomorrow yet. Justin wants us to start working even longer hours. To make our paycheck bigger of course. So that we can #1 catch up on rent, and #2save money. We have a goal, $3-6,000 so that on the off chance that his Xbox buddy comes through with the job offer, we can take it and move! We'll see. I was going to type more, but I think I'll wait. I want to go to bed soon, and maybe have some more sweet dreams....like the one I had the other night about taking a trup to France!!! I was so excited! I was going to get to wander around Paris and see the Eiffel Tower! I wasn't one bit concerned about not knowing the language! I'm still am...

Well, I guess. It's been over a week since my last post. Time to blog about something new. Only thing is, I'm not sure what to write! Not on this my diary blog that is. I've got everything else knocking around in there. Trying to get Zion's Children wrapped up so I cant get start on my next story, "First Best Destiny?" which will also be in my Conglomerate universe but with completely different characters. Well that's what I'm thinking at the moment. I might change that, but I doubt it. It wasn't going to be originally but I was freewriting some of it yesterday while I was waiting for Justin to get done with work and it just flowed into the story and I'm like, "Really?" I thought about it and decided to keep it that way. I've also got some poetry rattling around in there but I haven't gotten it finished yet. We called off work again today. I don't know why. Well, I don't know why he called off. I called off beca...

Happy New Year everyone!!! I have a good feeling about this year! Let's hope I can say that a year from now! Had a good night at mom's last night. Made two awesome kick ass pizza's from scratch. One was a pepperoni and the other was sausage bacon. The only thing I forgot to do was put the onions and peppers on the second pizza. Oh well, there's always next time! We had soda and sparkling grape juice to drink. We never did open the chips so we'll have them later this weekend. I've taken two pregnancy tests, not on the same day, and they've both come up negative. But I still don't have my period. I've never ever had it this late before. I'm trying to relax and not worry about it, honest. I'll wait until next Wednesday and try another test. It either reset itself when I had that wierd mid-cycle bleed, I'm pregnant and the hormone's just not high enough yet, or I've hit menopause! I'm way too young for that last one!...

So, I'm sitting here in a waiting room of the hospital while my Mom has a prodecure done. Been here since 10am, but they haven't told me they've started yet, so she's probably not even sedated yet! Hopefully this doctor will see something the others haven't and figure out how to help her. These UTI's are getting so old, and it's effected her quality of life. Not much else going on. I'm enjoying the books I just bought from Amazon.com I've read one Trek book, and will soon start another. I'm not sure what to make of the Heroes book...it was not what I was expecting. It's rather boring actually, like the Spider-man book. Too much talking or thinking, not enough action. Which I thought was odd for Spider-man. No where close to being ready for Christmas...no decorations up yet, although I only have one more gift to purchase. That is amazing in and of itself. Hope everyone's having a good day.

Well, I'm going away for the weekend. Justin is stayin home. He has to work Saturday, which is good because he called off Monday and Tuesday...I had a good reason to, I was sick. He just wanted to...??? Who knows? My Aunt Norma is in a movie that her church made and I decided I wanted to see it. Mom should be here shortly to pick me up. It's just an overnighter, 3 hours away, but packing can be such a pain. I don't like anything I have picked out to wear for church tomorrow. I know no one cares what I look like, it's a matter of me liking how I look and being comfortable. Ah well, at least I'm feeling better physically. Hope everyone has a good weekend.

I can't belive that I'm sick again. I just had a cold a couple of weeks ago. Now I've got another one and this one includes my chest. If I'm going to get sick every time that it's 'that time' of the month, I might have to find a new job! Sad to say that's the biggest news in my life this weekend.

And now it's Friday! Woot!!! Ok, if I have to work Saturday...that "woot!" will be changed to a groan, but I won't find that out till later today. Still, it's Friday! All day long!

And that about sums it up! Yeah, a real exctiting post huh? That's because I live such an exciting life! NOT! Up by 4am, in bed by 8pm. Blah!!

Still alive and kicking, I promise. Been busy working hard for too little money and respect, aren't we all? lol! Justin just gave his 2 weeks notice at the paper, he's switching jobs. I'm trying to do the same. If I can, I'd love to get into the Practical Nursing Program at a nearby school. Ok, I've got to get back to work now.

...extremely long. I was a paper carrier for a week. One of them got himself arrested and I was asked if I'd fill in for him for 'four or five days'...which turned into seven. Sigh. It was a very long week. Which is why I haven't been posting, emailing, or much of anything. My post for LGS could have been better, but I just didn't have the time. If they don't vote me off, I'll do better with the next challenge. ok. I'm still tired, so I'm off and get back to y'all later. :)