Window Into My Reality

I submitted a payment plan to the Housing Authority, to see if I can't stay where I am at...but I have yet to hear back from them. It's hard to believe that rumors are just rumors when the Boyfriend lets the other woman flirt with him in front of me. And it's all at work, so it's not like I can just take her out back and beat the crap out of her. Maybe he honestly doesn't realize how it looks to me...willing to give him the benefit of the doubt...cuz I 'm a fool most likely! :) At least I'm a cute one! Does he know how much it hurts me to see him joking around with her? Hello?! I'm the girlfriend...and since he's busy right now helping his cousin build onto his house, I think I deserve just a little bit of attention when we're all at work together. Like, HE needs to tell her her to back off and walk in the opposite direction when I'm trying to get him in a corner alone for a few minutes on our break time...although if she has any brains at al...

Just when I thought life couldn't get any worse...it does. It's not bad enough that I have to have another PAP smear just 6 months after the last one, which they do when somethings not quite right with the one you just had...it's not bad enough that there's a nasty rumor going around at work that my new boyfriend is already cheating on me...it's not bad enough that my car needs inspection next month and I know it needs stuff...it's not bad enough that my body hurts, finger joints hurt, my hip hurts...it's not bad enough that I've been having trouble breathing for a month..........I know it's not bad enough because I just got served with an eviction notice today. I knew I was behind in rent, but I didn't realize I was that behind! I need $408 by the end of the month to stop it, or it's 'Pack your bags, babe"...I wonder if God would give me a miracle I don't deserve? Please, all of you who pray, please pray for me.