Window Into My Reality

I just realized that it's been almost two weeks since I've posted...I know you missed me...but there hasn't been much to write about...of course, this might be because I don't check my email everyday now...so I don't have forwards to comment on... Like the one I am looking at now...pictures of men who have several...interesting...piercings. That is putting it mildly. Several ear piercings..nose piercings...eyebrows...noses {sides and middle}...upper lips...lower lips {?}...the front of the neck {with 'shoe lacings'}...spikes out of the foreheads...fingers. The email is picking on these men, poking fun at how they're unemployable. While I do not support these wild piercings...my heart breaks for the men...I don't know how else to say this...and it has little to do with their piercings, honest...but I can see the LOSTNESS in their eyes. "Please..somebody save me...help me..." - that is what I see in most of their eyes. I wonder if they...

I smell poo. This is a little odd...but not really...I'm sitting here at my Mom's after work...and I smell poo...one of the dogs probably went in the hallway...they don't get walked enough. I'm afraid to look though. Maybe when Liston comes storming down the hallway in a bit I'll find out. His alarmclock has been going off ever since I got here...little over half an hour ago. He'll be getting up here eventually. Had kind of a rough night at work. The paper had 3 inserts, which makes it too thick to run through the labeler so I had to hand label the mailbag papers with sticky labels. It takes sooooo long that way. My wrist aches a little now. So does my one foot, but that's from kicking a roll into place on the press. Jerry says I should have had Russel do that...but when I said something to Russel about it, he said that he wasn't any good at kicking them. Great...neither is Burgandy. Apparently I'm the 'manliest man' of them all!!!...

I have a problem with depression. It won't go away!!!!!!!! There have been times in my life that have been extremely dark...pain that can't be understood by those around me...a loneliness that covers me like a cloak even when in a crowded room. What usually comes out of these times, is poetry. Sometimes they have a prophetic edge..when I know that the words that I write aren't my own, but they are what God is saying to me to encourage me. Today I had a friend read some of the poems I have posted on my poetry site One of the things that she said was that three of the poems really touched her, they hit upon times in her past. She named them off... "I Can See You" "My Savior's Arms" and "One Woman Alone" ...and all three of them were written in times like I just described above. I was so moved by this, that I teared right up and cried a little. There is something almost comforting in knowing that something good came out of something tha...

HAPPY EASTER! Or if you prefer...Happy Ressurection Day! Either way...remember Jesus ...the price He paid and the victory He had over sin and death. And that He did it for YOU.

I've spent the past couple of days 'discussing' whether it is better to be married or single...with the wife of the gentlemen that told me he'd rather be married. She seems to think that it's better to be single. I have had to remind myself that she's never been single like I am single...that is, no spouse, no kids, living all alone. She has no point of reference. As angry as it's made me...it's also amused the heck out of me!!! {{Although, since the two of them seem to have differing opinions, maybe they need to talk!!}} It has been a really rough weak at work...machines not working right...editorial not getting the pages to us on time...machines not working right...Jim not calling the boss sooner...machines not working right...AHHHHH!!!!! I've got two nights off and I don't know what I'm going to do besides church group tonight...but I'm going to enjoy not being there!!!!