I got the job!!! Isn't that exciting? It's nightshift, though and it's gonna be dirty...but I can handle a little bit of dirt...and I don't think I'll be in this position for long as there is room for advancement and I'm a smart girl so I expect I'll be in another position eventually. I start tonight though, after working at the library all day today..I am gonna be whooped come 4AM...well, maybe it won't hit me until I actually get home...wouldn't that be nice?!?!
My friend continues to insist that it was due to conversations I had with my Pastor that caused her to be kicked out of leadership and later the church. Like I maliciously maligned her. Why would I betray the woman who holds all my secrets??? Would someone explain that one to me...there's no logic to it at all!! I almost wonder how much my question about balancing friendship and leadership. In October, we we had a special speaker in {still not sure what was so special about him, but he was ok}. And one of the points he brought up about leadership was that leaders really can't be buddy-buddy with the people under their authority... familiarity breeds contempt and all that...and I talked to my Pastor about it as I was having issues with my friend then...she was never just my friend...she was always prayer leader or mentor...and like the rest of leadership, she was pretty touchy about questions or the thought that she might be wrong about something...like it was a rebellion or a threat to her authority or something [all leadership is like this here, so it's no wonder]. And I was getting ready back then to pull back some, for both of our good. I mean, sometimes a person just needs a friend, without the fear that the leader in that friend is using the friendship against you, without the fear that something you say in anger or despair is going to later be used against you or another person...and without the fear that something you say to another leader in innocent passing will be used against your leader the friend. We do that crap all the time in my church...I don't find it in the Bible anywhere, and we're supposed to be all about doing things the way the Bible says it's to be done...but this is pretty much standard operating procedure for my church. Twisted huh?
{{{Eyeball roll!!}}}
My friend continues to insist that it was due to conversations I had with my Pastor that caused her to be kicked out of leadership and later the church. Like I maliciously maligned her. Why would I betray the woman who holds all my secrets??? Would someone explain that one to me...there's no logic to it at all!! I almost wonder how much my question about balancing friendship and leadership. In October, we we had a special speaker in {still not sure what was so special about him, but he was ok}. And one of the points he brought up about leadership was that leaders really can't be buddy-buddy with the people under their authority... familiarity breeds contempt and all that...and I talked to my Pastor about it as I was having issues with my friend then...she was never just my friend...she was always prayer leader or mentor...and like the rest of leadership, she was pretty touchy about questions or the thought that she might be wrong about something...like it was a rebellion or a threat to her authority or something [all leadership is like this here, so it's no wonder]. And I was getting ready back then to pull back some, for both of our good. I mean, sometimes a person just needs a friend, without the fear that the leader in that friend is using the friendship against you, without the fear that something you say in anger or despair is going to later be used against you or another person...and without the fear that something you say to another leader in innocent passing will be used against your leader the friend. We do that crap all the time in my church...I don't find it in the Bible anywhere, and we're supposed to be all about doing things the way the Bible says it's to be done...but this is pretty much standard operating procedure for my church. Twisted huh?
{{{Eyeball roll!!}}}
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