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lI know that this is the depression and despair taking...that things are not really as bad as they feel right now...but I really think that whoever coined the saying...'Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved...really didn't have a clue what they were talking about.

I want to scream right now----but I'd wake my Mom up and she'd kill me.

I feel like I'm suffocating as well......
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Jean-Luc Picard said…
Don't let the actions of others defeat you, Ciera.
10/22/2006 06:28:00 AM
Ciera said…
aye aye captain!! :)
10/22/2006 06:38:00 AM
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