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Here I Am Again

Well, my friend who admits that she feeds me bogus comments to see if I'll betray her to pastors is calling me a liar. Does anyone else see the irony in that?

I thought we had everything ironed out - but perhaps that was another one of her lies.

Life pretty much sucks right now. I myself don't think I've hurt her nearly as bad as she thinks I have...but then who am I to say. So - I'm taking myself out. I'm not going to her house, except to babysit her kids as I still owe her money [which she insists isn't part of the problem], I'm not ever going to visit my pastors again as they are just as manipulative, I'm not going to home group. I'm not sure what to do about our Tuesday night bible study we were just starting, or that stupid Friday night Watch. I'm not going to talk to anyone at church---just in and out on Sunday mornings.

And if you're reading this "Paigeylouwho" ---- you can just bite me.
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Sarah said…
Good for you, Ciera! It may be painful at first, but I'm glad you are standing up for yourself. You're an amazing woman who is talented and strong! While you're at it- are there any other local churches you could check out? I'm not really lovin' your pastor, from your stories.
5/03/2006 09:00:00 AM
Jean-Luc Picard said…
This was always going to be a prickly subject to talk to your friend about, so it comes as no surprise as to what's happened.

I agree with Sarah; you've stood up for yourself and expressed your own free will. Perhaps it is the time to seriously consider looking at another church?
5/03/2006 12:37:00 PM
utenzi said…
Damn, Ciera. You need to find a new town. You're wearing that one out.
5/03/2006 01:22:00 PM
Ciera said…
Sarah - not too keen on him myself right now.

Jean-Luc: yeah, you did try to warn me didn't you?

Utenzu - More like it's wearing me out.
5/03/2006 02:35:00 PM
M. C. Pearson said…
Oh Ciera! I am so sorry that this is happening to you. I know you must feel betrayed and manipulated. Politics and gossip...ug.

Well, I'll be praying for you but I'll also be praying for your church. Your pastor may need a swift kick from God just about now. I agree with Sarah and Jean-Luc...it may be time to check out a few churches around town.

It is hard to see the failings of church members and not be discouraged... thank God for Jesus... none of us are perfect although we should strive for a Christlike perfection. Maybe certain members of your church need to be reminded of that. We are forgiven, yes...but we also need to behave with love.

Galations 5:6b The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.
5/03/2006 10:52:00 PM
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