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Not as bad...

You know, this is really kind of strange...but for all the tears that I have shed in the past over the fear of this relationship ending...now that it has happened, I don't feel anywhere nearly as bad as I thought. Like...I honestly don't know what to think about this. I'm angry over her accusations, hurt that she doesn't believe me, still smarting from the yelling, but ... it's like a huge weight has been lifted off of me.

I'm trying to get a job as a newspaper reporter. I could do it, even though it hasn't always been my favorite form of writing. Everyone has to start somewhere.

It is very hot here, with sever thunderstorms rolling through the area. I've seen some pretty awesome lighting; there was small hail as well. The wind whipped, and the rain was falling in curtains. And along the western horizon the sun was shining.

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I saw that ad! I thought it looked fun too...go for it.
Jean-Luc Picard said…
I'm really suppoorting you with that newspaper job, Ciera. Good luck.

I agree, it does seem like a weight is off your mind.
... Paige said…
Writing is good. The burden of worry has been lifted. You no longer have to worry about it ending. And hey did you pop down to Texas or something. Thats our weather your talkin' about!
utenzi said…
It would seem that the weather is reflecting your emotions, Ciera. How interesting...

Good luck with your future career, Ciera. Writing is fun!
Ciera said…
Daydreamer: Not surprised yous aw it too. Going to drop off my revised resume tomorrow. Thought about mailing it, but dropping it off has to make a better impression.

Jean-Luc: how you make me smile

Paige: It was like that again last night...still hot and humid today...I've heard about Texan weather, have a sister that lives in Abiline.

Utenzi: are you saying that I'm emotioanlly turbulent and yet still beautiful??? LOL!! If anything, I'm becoming less emotionally turbulent as the days go by.

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