I forgot to tell you all the results of my meeting last Friday with Pastors about the guy who wanted to "share his abundance".
I got in trouble for 'jumping to conclusions', for not being 'nice' to a "brother in Christ". There were also thinly veiled accusations regarding my friend, which I was stupid enough to share with her, because she's the only one I've been to talk to about stuff...though it is no secret that Pastors are not her biggest fans right now. So now she's pointing the finger at me, and she's not appreciating my "What did I do?" response.
I have to walk away. And she's going to think that it proves her right.
What will she do when the gossip about her doesn't stop? Who will she blame then? Perhaps she ought to stop feeding the monster of gossip - maybe then it would stop biting her.
But what do I know? I'm just the dumbass woman she's been mentoring for over two years. I get smacked down everytime I disagree with her. Smack a puppy long enough and it'll run away, or turn viscious. Right now I'm opting for running away, although Cliff and England have both been talking me down from my most drastic measures.
And I have further pissed her off, if she's bothering to read any of my "arguementative manipulative" emails, by telling her that she gets what she sows into people...and that she's exacting revenge on the church by throwing out BS to me and others in an attempt to teach us all a lesson on gossip. She's not God, she doesn't have to set up life lessons for me and the rest of us at this disfunctional church, we can foul up all on our own, thank you very much.
Perhaps I am warped and rebellious and wrong. Wouldn't be the first time.
Oh yes! Happy Cinco de Mayo!