Friday, December 29, 2006

Why Me?

Why me? Somebody ~ please tell me "Why me?"

I leave a friend's house last night and stop in to the Acorn because I'm thirsty and just want some water. An aquaintance I know through work stops me in the parking lot, won't let me by, and jumps down my throat for "telling on her" to her husband. WTF?!?!?! It took me a moment to remember the conversation ~ it happened Sunday afternoon and all I did was apologize to the man for the part I played one weekend when I picked her up and drove her around the corner to meet her boyfriend. I had no idea when I agreed to that, that they were still married and that I was helping them commit adultery, but by the time I found out, it was too late to back out. And I didn't tell her husband anything he didn't already know or suspect...like the fact that she is living with her boyfriend. I was so upset after this confrontation that I was shaking. I drove around a couple minutes, then decided it wouldn't hurt to talk to the cops, because I'm tired of people pushing me around like this. God only knows what this will do at my work {I work with the boyfriend, and she is friends with almost everyone there.} Crap. And ya know, she bitched at me because I didn't tell her about talking to her husband. Let's see......I saw her Sunday morning and then again last night....and I talked to him Sunday afternoon....uhm....when exactly was I supposed to tell??????? I wonder how much she'd had to drink? Sheesh.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Name Change

I've decided to change the name of my blog. This is still My Secret Place, but this is in truth Diary of A Prodigal Saint, sooo......I've been running from God for over a year now, and when I fell down, and turned around to run home....I found God right there waiting with open arms....just like the prodigal son in the Bible.

While it is not a pretty story...and I have failed my Savior many times...the story I present the world has been an honest story. And it is not done yet. So I shall continue to write of my life...the trials, the spiritual falls, the ups as well as the downs. I might bore you, I might amuse you....but I will always be me.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Merry Christmas One and All

Isaiah 9:6 ~ For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.


Luke 2:9-11 ~ And behold, an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were greatly afraid. Then the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord.


In the hustle and bustle of this holiday season, may the True Reason for the season find a home in your heart, and may Jesus bring you great joy. Merry Christmas to all my blogger friends :)

Monday, December 18, 2006

I am SO bad!!!

I am SO bad!

I found the Jerk online this afternoon, so I decided to talk to him...see how him and the little woman are doing..,actually ended up talking to here as well...he hasn't found a job yet, but she has...a nice little tidbit I plan on passing on to people at work...especially since she's working at a bar and I work with alcoholics...she's also four weeks pregant...and they're not sure who the father is!!!!! It could be Steve...but it could be her other boyfriend as well. As much as this news hurt....it also amused the crap out of me....I told him that she would cheat on him, but did the cheating asshole listen???? NOOOOO...of course not....And bad bad bad girl that I am...I told them at the end, that my period was late and Steve was the last one I had sex with. I am so sick and twisted...but I enjoyed every minute of that!!!!!! Afterwards, I turned to my Mom...who's laughing at my antics towards the screen..."So you don't worry Mom, I'm only one day late." She howled!!!!

What goes around, comes around....maybe someday Steven will learn that...before he's fathered half a dozen children across PA and NJ. So glad that it's not my problem though!!!! So very very glad.

Friday, December 15, 2006

It's Official

Life...SUCKS!

Want to know how I know?

Because this morning...I dropped a carton of 15 eggs on the floor...broke every single one of them.

What a mess. Ew.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Tagged!!!! :)

A holiday "get to know you". I thought it'd make a great 202nd post. Thanks for tagging me Daydreamer.

1. Eggnog or Hot Chocolate? BOTH, BUT I'D DRINK THE EGGNOG FIRST...
2. Does Santa wrap presents or just set them under the tree? DEPENDS ON HIS MOOD THAT NIGHT
3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? COLORED
4. Do you hang mistletoe? NO, WHY WOULD I WANT TO HANG MISTLE BY HER TOES? SHE'S DONE NOTHING TO ME. NOW.....I CAN THINK OF A COUPLE OTHER PEOPLE I WOULDN'T MIND HANGNING BY THEIR TOES..........
5. When do you put your decorations up? WHEN THE MOOD STRIKES...USUALLY ABOUT A WEEK BEFORE CHRISTMAS...
6. What is your favorite holiday dish? UHM.....I HAVE TO PICK JUST ONE? LOL!
7. Favorite holiday memory as a child? FOR SOME REASON....THE YEAR DAD CALLED SANTA ON THE PHONE ON CHRISTMAS EVE BECAUSE US KIDS WEREN'T BEHAVING....
8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? AT THE LUNCH TABLE IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL WHEN JENNIE BROWN ANNOUNCED THAT THERE WAS NO SANTA THAT IT WAS JUST OUR PARENTS DOING IT... :'(
9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO TALK MY FAMILY INTO THIS...
10. What kind of cookies does Santa get set out for him? SUGAR COOKIE CUTOUTS
11. Snow! Love it or hate it? IF I DON'T HAVE TO DRIVE IN IT OR SHOVEL IT, I'M OK WITH IT...IT'S PRETTY TO LOOK AT...
12. Can you ice skate? SINCE I'VE NEVER BEEN...I'M GONNA GUESS 'NO'
13. Do you remember your favorite gift? AN ANGEL SNOW GLOBE THAT PLAYS "AMAZING GRACE"
14. What's the most important thing about the holidays to you? SURVIVING IT? I'M KIDDING! VISISTING FAMILY THAT I DON'T GET TO SEE THE REST OF THE YEAR...
15. What is your favorite holiday dessert? AGAIN, JUST ONE? BLUEBERRY PIE WOULD HAVE TO BE AT THE TOP OF MY LIST RIGHT NOW...
16. Favorite Holiday tradition? GOING TO THE MIDNIGHT CHRISTMAS EVE SERVICE IN TROY...IT'S THE SAME THING EACH AND EVERY YEAR AND I CAN NOD OFF IN THE MIDDLE OF IT AND KNOW EXACTLY WHERE WE ARE AT IN THE SERVICE WHEN I WAKE UP...
17. What tops your tree? AN ANGEL.
18. Which do you prefer--GIVING OR RECEIVING? BOTH GIVE ME EQUAL PLEASURE.
19. What is your favorite Christmas Carol? O COME, O COME EMMANUEL
20. Candy Canes? ARE GREAT IN HOT CHOCOLATE

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Friday, December 08, 2006

A Flat Tire And A Fall

I had a flat tire this week. Ticked me right off. I felt it shortly before I got home, so I limped my car home. Which is probably good because that afternoon when I went to change it...it wouldn't come off!!! Yes, I had the car jacked up! :P I had friends come help...it was thuroughly kicked and hammered. To no avail. So my friend Diana took me to work, Mom and Liston brought down her van for me to use in the morning...and Liston went to look at the car for me. Can you believe that stinker managed to get the tire off and the donut on?

So, I drove to Mom's after work...Liston drove me home...I stayed up until the garages opened. I drove around town on a FLAT DONUT trying to find a garage that would help me. The first one was closed...the second one turned me away because he was 'too busy' to deal with me...the third one couldn't help, but he called around to see if he could find a tire for me...sent to the fourth one only to find out that they couldn't help either aside from ordering me one...I went home and went to bed.

Got Diana to drive me to work again, knowing I'd find someone there to drive me home again...Austin ended up doing it...he only lives over the mountain from me...and actually I had him take me to Diana's because she was going to help me find a tire. Turns out her husband found me 2...for half the price the garages were going to charge me...her husband even put them on for me! Not all guys are bad. Austin didn't even want gas money from me.

So, that ended well.

This morning coming out of work...I slid on a patch of ice under the dusting of snow and fell on my softest part. Dustin watched the whole thing happen and agreed that it was a graceful fall. How embarrassing. Butt - I didn't get hurt, so...all's well that ends well. :)

Oh, and that typo up above...was on purpose!!!! LOL!!

Monday, December 04, 2006

Where I Am

Daydream Believer asked where I was.....

I be working! I worked six days straight after coming home from Thanksgiving...and have had only one day off...I think I may have slept most of it...I know I slept most of Sunday, though I was a very good girl and went to church that morning.

I guess I'm ok. I mean, I haven't been picked up for double homicide...LOL! It's been getting a little easier. Since my doctor put me on medication for anxiety [remember all that trouble I was having with my breathing???? Nerves!!!] I decided maybe I ought to go back to my counsleor...the one who got me through the emotional crash of '94 after high school and some other things...and we were talking during out first session...and I don't know what I said, but he sits up all of a sudden like and says, "I don't think depression is the right diagnosis...I don't know why I didn't see this before...I think you're bipolar..." He actually apologized for misdiagnosing me all these years {that was a little wierd}. I don't actually get tested for it until later this month though---I mean, I already have the followup doctors appointment, why not just do it then. I suppose I could go in now and like, know for sure...but I checked online a list of symptoms...went right down the list, 'yep, yep, uh-huh, sometimes, that's me...'

I told my one friend this, the one who gives me so much trouble and blaims it on me...and she was like, "I don't think you've got that...you seem pretty even to me...you're just depressed and heartbroken..." Yeah, my heart is broken right now....like, shattered.....but if she honestly thinks I'm "even" maybe she ought to read this blog, where anyone can see my ups and downs...sometimes with in the same day...

Ah well.....such is life.......