Saturday, December 31, 2005

Plants and the New Year

I bought a plant last night. Probably paid too much, but it was a nice little ivy plant. It's a friends house right now as we went to see the Narnia movie last night and I didn't want to leave it in my car for that long. I don't know why exactly I would do this to this poor innocent plant, as I do not have a green thumb. I even managed to kill an aloe plant, which is a cactus and how in the world do you kill a cactus???????? Perhaps this one will fare better.

And you all read that right. I went to the theater and saw the Narnia movie for the second time. When oh when will it come out on vhs and dvd???? I caught several things I didn't the first time through, from Santa's shadow on the snow [duh] to a parrellel between the war the kids fled from and the one they fought in Narnia.

We are on the brink of another new year. I am rather more pessimistic and cynical than I have been in past years, and yet at the same time I've had a wonderful run of emails this week that has helped take the edge off of that.

I'm thinking of adding a second blog here, a fiction sight seperate from Superhero Bob. Just a thought. Of course, I'd actually have to feel creative for that wouldn't I? I'm barely getting Bob by, poor girl.

I think I'm going to go have a donut now.

Friday, December 30, 2005

Friday musings

It's been a good week. It was kind of rough on Sunday, Christmas and all. Was kind of like being in a small war zone, though the family wasn't as bad as they've been in the past. Someone at some point told me to "grow up" and I was so tempted to flip them the bird, which would have been a fine mark of my maturity, and tell them that if they could do any better after coming out of a sick bed to fix a lot of what they were eating then they could just go for it. But I didn't. I've done a good deal of sleeping this week, which has really felt kind of good. BUT----during my awake hours, I've spent a good deal of time at my bestest friend's place and we've had a few good talks. A lot has been forgiven on both sides, and we're moving on. This is good. this is very good.

Prayer was...interesting...last night. My friend has been removed as leader...a decision I don't agree with but I'm only a "civilian" at church and my opinion in matters matter very little. So Pastor has taken over the role as leader until he either finds someone new or sees whatever it is he is expecting to see in my friend. She is not hopeful, as she had grown much these past few months and you can't "un-mature" soooo...she doesn't think she can give him what he wants. Honestly, it would take a miracle...in others before her. And so, last night Pastor kind of sets the rules for praying in a group...which is everything my friend has been saying for over a year...and most of us do good at following them...until Mr. Praise and Worship leader starts...and he busts them all! And it's OK! I'm sitting there terrified to even pray cuz he's sitting right next to me and then it suddenly doesn't matter because he's taken over the entire meeting!!!! I would rather not go if that's the way it's going to be.

It is really kind of quiet in the library today. The boss isn't in so there's no singing going on and I'm much to busy on the computer here to sing a song...that and tired from being out late last night with my friend. I took her over the mountain to Walmart and it was after midnight when we got home. When she found that out, she was like, 'You should have smacked me'. I just told her I was having fun and didn't mind. Which is true. I value her friendship even more now, and so.....

We have a church service Saturday night, to ring in the New Year. It's always a fun night. Food, of course cuz we're """bapticoastals""" Boardgames, more food. Praise and worship and prayer throught the midnight hour {I love that phrasing for some reason} and .... shhhhh ...some of us might prayer through the night. cool!

Ok. I have to go pretend to do a little library work before shutting down for the noon hour...woudn't want people to think I was having too much fun here!!!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

The Blood

This is not my poem, I am not sure who wrote it, but it was forwarded to me by a friend and it was too good not to share [almost made me cry..."almost" because I'm in the library!] I think it will bless a few of you too.

THE BLOOD

One night in a church service
a young woman
felt the tug of God at her heart.
She responded to God's call
and accepted Jesus
as her Lord and Savior.
The young woman had
a very rough past,
involving alcohol,
drugs, and prostitution.
But, the change in her
was evident.

As time went on she became
a faithful member of the church.
She eventually became
involved in the ministry,
teaching young children.
It was not very long until this
faithful young woman
had caught the eye and heart
of the pastor's son.
The relationship grew and
they began to make wedding plans.
This is when the problems began.
You see,
about one half of the church
did not think that a woman
with a past such as hers
was suitable for a pastor's son.
The church began to argue
and fight about the matter.
So they decided to have a meeting.
As the people made
their arguments;
tensions increased,
the meeting was getting
completely out of hand.
The young woman
became very upset
about all the things
being brought up about her past.
As she began to cry
the pastor's son stood to speak.

He could not bear the pain
it was causing his wife to be.

He began to speak
and his statement was this:
"My fiancée's past is not
what is on trial here.
Wha t you are questioning
is the ability of
the blood of Jesus
to wash away sin.
Today you have put
the blood of Jesus on trial.

So, does it wash away sin or not?"
The whole church began to weep
as they realized that they
had been slandering
the blood of
the Lord Jesus Christ.
Too often,
even as Christians,
we bring up the past
and use it as a weapon
against our brothers
and sisters.
Forgiveness is
a very foundational part
of the Gospel of
Our Lord Jesus Christ.
If the blood of Jesus
does not cleanse
the other person completely
then it cannot cleanse
us completely.
If that is the case,
then we are all in
a lot of trouble.
What can wash away my sins?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus!

End of case!!!!
"Cast thy burden upon the Lord,
and he shall sustain thee
he shall never suffer
the righteous to be moved."

Psalm 55:23

Friday, December 23, 2005

Merry Christmas

Off for the holidays. So y'all have a Merry Christmas! And a happy Hanakkuh! And while you're at it, whether it's a holiday or not - Have a good day!

LOL!

Much joy to you all!

Love, Ciera :)

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Things to think upon....

Do you suppose that the stores that have banned their cashiers from saying "Merry Christmas" are also choosing which songs they play over the loud speakers. What about - "I want to wish you Merry Christmas/Feliz Navidad"?????? In theory, if they ban their cashiers from saying the phrase, then they can not play ANY song mentioning the phrase either, otherwise they are contradicting themselves!!!!

OK. I guess that was only one thing. I had an entire list this morning, but can you believe I have since forgotten all the other things?

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Blog Test

Who comes up with these things? And why do I find them so much fun?


How evil are you?

Saturday, December 17, 2005

stayed home

Well, I stayed home this weekend. Going to try to go to my bro's later, during Christmas break. So, I shall clean the library this afternoon, then go home to tidy my place and put up my 12inch Christmas tree.

Not sure if I'll get to see my friend this day, as she wasn't home when she said she was going to be ... which is what finds me sitting here on a free Saturday blog surfing and stuff. Oh wait, I do that anyways. Nevermind!!!

Hope this weekend finds you all warm and dry.

:)

Friday, December 16, 2005

Winter snow and Wierd Habits

I had more trouble getting out of my parking lot this morning than I did driving on the roads. Hopefully the maintenance man Byron will have the lots cleared of snow by the time I have to go home. And I had to park on the other side of the street from the library instead of right in front, because there was no way I was going to park in unplowed snow ya know. I'd rather walk a few extra feet than have my car stuck!

I was tagged over at
Carl's and since I can't help but do these things:

Here are the rules:

“The first player of this game starts with the topic “five weird habits of yourself,” and people who get tagged need to write an entry about their five weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged and link to their web journals. Don’t forget to leave a comment in their blog or journal that says “You are tagged” (assuming they take comments) and tell them to read yours.”

And so, without further ado, here are - -

Five Weird Habits of Mine:

1. I Blog. This might not seem unusual in the grand scheme of things, but believe me - where I live, I am odd for doing this.

2. I like cold pizza, especially for breakfast. I can't stand it rewarmed...blech.

3. Like Carl, I rewatch movies...I watched LOTR:The Fellowship of the Ring 6 times the first week my sister brought the movie home...a little obsessive I know.

4. I won't stomp through puddles or walked through water if I can help it because I can't stand wet feet.

5. I still read the comics every day. MY favorites are: BC, For Better or For Worse, Garfield, Rose is Rose, and Bob the Squirrel.

Okay, those tagged would be:
1.
Superhero Bob
2.
Daydream Believer
3.
Cliff
4.
The Captain
5.
Shelley

And like Carl, I won't be offended if you don't share yours!

I would have tagged
Rob, but he doesn't do them. Party pooper. I would have taged Fluke too - but he's busy in the middle of a party.

Oh, I guess doing these meme things would count as an unusual habit wouldn't it? :)

Avatar!

My thanks to Daydream Believer for giving me the idea of posting an avatar on my Blog instead of a pic.

*hugs* back! :)

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Since we have no where to go...Let it snow

Well, as forecasted.....it is snowing. Looks like the freezing rain and stuff is gonna stay south of PA though. This makes me very happy. On the bright side, school let out early, almost before it started snowing...this too made me happy as the roads hadn't got wet enough to be slippy yet. I only had a little bit of slippage at the last stop. Not too bad at all.

My fingers are cold. That could be because it's cold outside. I'm not sure what the temp in the library is, but it's chilly in the computer room. Could be all the windows.

I don't have to do bus tomorrow [headstart has Friday's off regularly] and so the farthest I have to go is up to the library to work all day. I wonder, would it look odd if I were to keep my gloves on? Just a thought.

I am making progress in life. I'm beginning to take an interest in my appearance again [someday I'll post a pic of myself, promise]. I'm beginning to take an interest in the cleanliness of my apartment [no, you'll probably never see a pic of that!]. I'm even trying to resurrect a certain Superhero. I'm beginning to read my Bible again [which only makes sense since it contains the Word of Life!]

Ever hopeful.

:)


Author's addition: Yeah - ok, the freezing rain and sleet didn't stay south. I'm an author, not a weather forecaster! Can't blame me for wishful thinking, can you?

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

A hodgepodge

It's gonna snow. I know this outside of the weather report because of three things.
#1- the sky was a glorious red and lavendar this morning...all the way around the horizon.
Beautiful!
#2- the kids on the bus are even more highstrung than usual.
#3- I plan on going away this weekend.

I heard the neatest story on the radio today. Ok, I only caught about half of it. This couple had sent an email telling about all the trials they were going through, and how other Christians had stepped in to help them. They had even put their wedding rings on Ebay in an effort to raise money. So, John and Denny of the morning show had this couple come in and at the end of it...someone had bought the wedding rings and through John and Denny, gave them back to the couple!!! I thought it was cool. With all the terror in today's world, there is still Love.

There was something else I wanted to say here. thinking.........sheesh.....I'll have to come back later and repost, that is if I ever remember what it was.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

You know

You know you've got a winning hairdo when a compliment is the first thing out of one of the little boys on the bus!!!!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Oooops!

A slip of the tongue can get you in BIG trouble.


Narnia

I got to see Chronicles of Narnia last night. Very cool movie. It's been a few years since I've read book form of "The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrone" so I wouldn't be able to tell you were the movie strays from the book like my friends was able to...at least she didn't make comments throughout the movie!! I think one of my favorite scenes was Lucy finding the wardrobe and uncovering it...the angles of the camera's and the music were awesome. It was like she was finding this magnificent treasure...and she was.

Heard a great comment on a different movie preview that stuck with me.

"You're not a failure until you refuse to get back up."

The guy was talking about skateboarding, but it applies to ALL areas of life.

It's another Saturday here at the library. Nothing going on, although the sirens went off a few minutes ago so there must be a fire or an accident somewhere. Both are nasty prospects in this cold weather - 24 Degrees! Brrr. One of my friends, my best one, in fact told me a story soem time ago what it was like for her and her family when they first moved here to PA. Previously they had lived in Ohio and there the sirens that we use for fires and accidents are used for tornado warnings. {See where this is going} So the first time their new towns fire sirens went off, they all headed to the basement becuase even if it was a blue sky, if the tornado siren was going off......it was a good while before they figrued they were safe and came out to find out what was going on. Culture shock? They thought we were a little nuts. She actually has a good point though. We have no warning device for tornado's or anything like that. Good thing we don't get too many. We had, I think 2 bad storms this past summer that had tornado potential. Not like that one summer.

Going to keep this short today.

Blessings everyone. :)

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Same subject, different characters

Today ~ on the radio...Chip's still talking about perspective and focus and whatnot. And the Scottish guy in the morning was talking about Joseph. At least, I think he's a Scot. Could be Irish. I just dunno! He has a nice accent though...he kept saying "Psalm" this morning and at first I though he was saying Sam!

Anyway. Joseph was not protected from circumstances, but in them. He was protected by God's presence...protected from the silent killers of Resentment, Self-pity, and Bitterness. And he was protected for a unique purpose {echoes back to Jeremiah 29:11}.

And Chip says this about perspective:
Our feelings follow our focus,
Our focus follows our affections,
Our affections follow our thinking.
That and we're like a sponge...when we get squeezed by life, we find out what we're really retaining, what we're really filled with.

So - Since I seem to be leaking Resentment, Self-pity and Bitterness...then that means my focus has been off...and that I haven't been in God's presence. Ahh - more verses from James. "Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you." If memory serves, that's right after talking about submitting to God.




Is it just me, or did my brother just spank me down below in the previous post? ouch. consider me chastened. I think I'm gonna start calling him Spanky!

Seriously though...the people I am in the contact with the most right now seem to be consistantly irritated with me {{{shrug}}}




Ok. Back to talking about God's presence. I saw what they call a sundog today. It has something to do with ice crystals in the atmosphere - which makes sense since we have a storm coming in tonight. I've found a photo from NASA to show what I'm talking about. I was going to just post it, but I noticed it had a copyright on it and wasn't sure if I should do that. So here's the link:
Sundog
I was driving the bus and the 'real' sun was hidden by a mountain...and off to the left...was this faint sundog. I'd never seen one before and it was one of the coolest things I've ever seen. It was a God moment.



Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Life on the Edge

This is the name of a radio program that I try to listen to each day. It comes on FLN at 12:30, and also on the Q at 1:00, so if I tune in late to the first one, I can catch the beginning as soon as it begins. Backwards, I know, but it works. Today the teacher, Chip Ingram, started a new series...about perspective. And it drove home just what a negative pessimist I am. And a lot of that has to do with where my focus is. He taught from the opening chapter of Philippians, which Paul wrote while in prison. He walked us verse by verse to show us how Paul responded to his circumstance - with an upward focus, an outward focus, and a forward focus. Needless to say, Paul wasn't focusing on his circumstances. Which I am so very good at doing.

I want to have a right perspective, which I think is probably one of the things that God is trying to teach my right now. I do so wish that the transformation was quicker though. I mean, I hear so much about how God can do a quick work, and I've even had it prayed over me [see-I'm even taking too long for other people].

Of course, how do we learn this - but by trials and aggravating circumstances{tribulations}!! BUT, according to Romans 5:3-5 "And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us."

Ha! Yes! How's that for perspective! I should tac these verses somewhere so that I can see them more often!

Saturday, December 03, 2005

A hope and a future...a destiny?

Jeremiah 29:11 ~ For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. ~ {thoughts can also be translated as 'plans'}

So said the Lord to me shortly before my high school graduation, one of the worst experiences in my life. Since then, whenever I have grown discouraged or in some way have gone astray...God has almost literally thrown this verse back in my face "Hello - girl - I haven't forgotten" so to speak. This time, He did it differently and my mind went back to the verse on its own.

To some degree, I have misinterpreted recent events - for example, I haven't lost my bestest friend like I thought I had. And I've allowed Man's opinion to outwiegh God's. Like I just told a friend, one of my biggest flaws in an almost instantious jumping to the wrong panicky conclusion - I don't do it on purpose! but I can't seem to change this either. And so I've gotten to the point of discouragement where I was literally wrapping myself into a numb coccoon. Given up. Lord, just take me home so I don't have to face this miserable world anymore.

Everything had shattered - is shattered. Everything I ever thought God had ever said to me regarding those plans He says He has, just shattered. That's how it looks to me and honestly still looks. When I listened to a tape of a sermon from a few weeks ago - regarding destiny - my response was one of anger, to the point of tears {it's a good thing no one else was one the bus with me, they'd have thought I'd completely lost it!}

"Destiny?" I thought. "I have no destiny. It's a lie, all a lie. I'm never going to be anyone or do anything of lasting affect. I'm nobody..." Etc. All the way home, almost 20 minutes worth of thoughts of this vein.

And then I picked up one of my books at home to read in an effort to make myself number, a Christian fantasy novel called "The Shadow Within" by Karen Hancock. And I found myself hit between the eyes as I found my Pastor's sermon there. I almost threw the book across the room.

The main character was basically in an underground church meeting and here were the words that hit mo so hard:

"They {{powers&principalities from Ephesians 6}} will hide in the shadows and the darkness, hoping you will forget they exist. Hoping you will focus on the pawns they send against you, instead. They will seek to wear you down, to fill you with fear, to get you to doubt your ability, your destiny, your very place in the Light.
"They will seek to keep you from using your power that is your heritage and rely instead on human power......
"You have a destiny. Do you know what it is? Are you willing to embrace it? Lay down your very life in its service? Or will you let your enemy hold you back with fears and illusions, keep you from trusting him whom you should trust above all others? He knows exactly what he is doing in your life, and he has everything under control. You know that, but do you believe it? Will you go forward in the direction he has led you and rest in the knowledge that he'll see you through it? Or will you back away?"

I could have screamed when I read that. AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

And then later - as the main character is facing one of those nasty beasts that are prevalent in fansty fiction - God tells him to drop all his weapons and to just trust him. OF course our hero balks. Who wouldn't---you're standing in fron tof a fantastic beast with sharp teeth and claws and Gos wants you to do what? Drop your manmade weapons?? To face the enemy - with nothing.......And God says to him......"And that is the only way you'll walk through the door of your destiny, my son. You must trust me completely, no matter what sight tells you. Put aside your own ideas and plans and let me do as I wish with you."

Clay in the potter's hand.

Again I say - AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Perhaps all is not lost after all. Even though it feels it.

I know this was long, but it was something I thought important enought to share with y'all.