Saturday, April 29, 2006

Happy Blogaversary!!

While this particular blog that you're reading isn't a year old, today is my one year blogaversary. Has it really been a year since I started posting my ventings, my angst, my dreams and hopes online? It's only been since September that I've been writing here in My Secret Place, but I started the Amazing Grace one on April 29th 2005.

My first post read:

"Wow {that was the most impressive title!!}
I have no idea what I am doing...this is an experiment of grand porportions.
I am a nobody from nowhere...knowing that I am a somebody...because I know that Jesus died on the cross for me...We'll see what comes from this.
In the meantime, as Chief says in his email signoffs....Blessings!"

Changes since then: I no longer talk with Chief at all...he's the praise and worship leader of my church who thought I was propositioning him last August. {eyeball roll} What an ego---I was so very tempted that I would never do that to him {or with him} as I had a full blown crush on another blogger.

What has come of my blogging? Friends. I have a circle of friends all to my own.

Daydreamer I found when my brother mentioned her blog to me. I keep going back because she accepts me like I accept her, without strings, without expectations, with love.

Mimi I must have met somehow through Cpt. Picard's blog. She's great fun and a great encourager.

Kat and I have a few things in common...and she's only a couple months older than I am.

Fluke is a constant source of amusement, even though he's taking a break from blogging right now.

Jean-Luc-----ah what to say about him? He's a great friend, English to boot, and his one-year blogaversary is tomorrow! Imagine that coincidence will you? We found each other's blogs somewhere in the beginning of first comment on his blog was May 2nd to be precise as Data. If you haven't already, y'all be sure to hop on over there tomorrow and wish him a happy Blogaversary will you? Tell him Ciera sent you. ;-)

I really enjoy blogging, as there have been so many different people I've met. The cross-cultural thing is really cool.

You've been here with me through my rollercoaster moments...have endured my venting and psychotic moments when I thought the world was ending...have listened while I cried on your collective shoulders about things that have depressed me...and y'all keep coming back!

And I keep making new friends like Paige! Not forgetting to mention Utenzi who pops in once in a while.

And if you're here from Michele's, who's weekend game I love even though my brother Cliff just doesn't share my enthusiasm, then you know one other thing I like about blogging...uhm, yeah, the weekend game.

Oh, I also like those stupid blogthing tests and meme's...

Friday, April 28, 2006

A short post about...


In my previous comment to Jean-Luc about board games, I said that the board game Monopoly had some bitter-sweet memories attached to it.

It's what 3 of us kids were playing when we got the phone call that our father had died.

I can't play it without thinking of that moment...and him. He was far from the perfect father...but he was the one I was given.

That said, who'd like to buy Boardwalk?

Monday, April 24, 2006

5 Random Thoughts

Mimi gave an open tag to whoever wanted to do the meme about 5 random thoughts about myself. I could not resist...

1. I really don't like driving school bus. It's not that I don't like the kids...I love them...I love their chatter...their innocence...their laughter...even their singing which drives me bonkers. It's the red tape of Headstart and their inability to communicate changes and stuff to me. And the pressure of having all those little lives in my care during a snow or ice storm is too much to handle.

2. I adore listening to Chip Ingram's radio program, Living on the Edge. He is a bible teacher who is practical and grounded and balanced. Yes, balanced. There have been many times that it has been his voice over the radio that has kept me from harm and talked me out of despair. He's funny too, and not afraid to show his humanity.

3. I like to play Scrabble. Like, I get competative about it. Mom and I used to play it on Playstation2 and we'd be at it for hours because whenever one of us would win, the loser would say..."Want to go again?" Sometimes we'd cheat and use "help"...but it was more fun not to, ya know.

4. I am discovering that I like to take pictures, thanks to a certain English friend wanting to see what I look like. I'm not very good taking pictures, yet, but I'll be looking at something now and I'll think---that'd make a great picture! Like the green blush on the mountains right now...beautiful. Like the daffodil at Mom's that I snapped at Easter time...a bulb that has lain dormat for at least ten eyars that has finally pushed it's way through to cunlight. I hope it turns out cuz it's something I'd like to post here.

5. I have to find a way to sneak out of the library as there is one of those people that you like to avoid here and I know if she sees me, she'll try to delay me. grrrrr.....

Sunday, April 23, 2006

What is wrong with people?

Ok...I don' t get this. My church has a simple rule about men ministering to women and vice know, praying for them, like, during an altar call...that is, it doesn't happen without a third person present. Simple right? Well, last Sunday I had a man approach me and said that he wanted to "share his abundance" with me. I had just about every warning flag that a woman has go up in an instant. First of all, this guy is kind of creepy. Second, when I told him that I wasn't comfortable with this happening away from other people [which he couldn't be done in front of people]...he argued it with me..."But God told me too." I was a bit rude...or blunt perhaps..."No, He didn't." Hello, it's against rules. Anyway, before it was over and done with, Pastor was involved...I know I didn't handle it right...I should have told Pastor then and there what was going on...but I didn't...I just told the guy that I had answered him all I was going to answer him and that I had to go as my mother was expecting me. Sorry, but I'd rather appease my mother's emotional blackmail than this guys blatant manipulation.

So, I sent Pastor an email early in the week letting him know my side of the story. Today I asked Pastor if he had gotten it and if we needed to talk more about it. And dammit if he didn't say yes, that we needed to talk about it more. WHY??? He'd better not scold me...I did the best that I could in a new situation. One that was uncalled for. I mean, this guy isn't even on the altar ministry so why he is approaching me to pray for me...when there wasn't even an altar call...and I was in a fair way and didn't feel in the need of prayer???

If Pastor scolds me...I am going to be so blasted angry. I hope he's just going to give me pointers on how to handle it should it ever happen again.

Although when I told England this story....he gave me permission to smack the guy if he ever bother me again and to let him know it was from my boyfriend. I wonder what Pastor would say to that! Yikes!

Other than's ok.

Slightly Addicted

Just a little......honest......LOL!!!

You Are 60% Addicted to Blogthings

You're a Blogthings fiend - addicted but not totally dependent.
So what if you know your personality type by heart?
And while you may feel like Blogthings is crack...
There are people much worse off than you!

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Sounds like me...

ColorQuiz.comCiera took the free personality test!

"Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of exp..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006


Sort of....I recently had a friend take some pics of me so that I could send them to a friend, and she did it on her digital camera and it suddenly hit me...why not share what I look like with the entire blogger world??? Well, I can think of a couple different reasons, but my friend would scold me!!! :)

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Another one...

Another one, just for kicks as these things amuse me...

Your Birthdate: July 31

You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good.
You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship.
In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing.
Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you.

Your strength: Your dependability

Your weakness: You hate being alone

Your power color: Midnight blue

Your power symbol: Shell

Your power month: April

And Jean-Luc...yours was very interesting!! LOL

Monday, April 17, 2006

I'm bored...

I'm bored, can you tell?

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.


Easter was ok. There wasn't as much fighting as there was at Christmas, so it was an ok day. Church was good, I didn't fall during our dance.

I slept in today since there was no school. I'll have to get up tomorrow at the regular grindmill time. Blech.

Not much else to report. I'm tired from our all night prayer meeting on Friday night. I'm hungry. I have to do the dance again tonight [praying that I don't fall or drop anything].

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Happy Easter

Happy Easter all...or Resurrection Sunday depending on your preference. Have a great day.

Jesus is ALIVE!!!! YAY!!!!


I love these things.....

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Friends, continued...

Well, when it comes to friends, it seems I just pecked the surface didn't I? Here's what the readers had to say:

1. Nienke reminded me about Acquaintances. These are people you rub up against in the work place, at school, church, or about town...they're friendly and y'all get along well...and maybe are potential for a deeper friendship, but most just stay at the fringes of your life.

2. Jean-Luc reminded me of Best Friends. These are exactly what the words imply. They're the ones you tell your secrets to, and who's secrets you hear and neither of you ever share. You love each other even though you know the worst about each other. These are usually Oak Tree Friends.

3. Vanx used the term Buick Friends. He described them as: "Fast, solid, sassy, down the road, and expensive to maintain."

4. Claude wondered how to classify those people who considered him their friend while he doesn't regard them as such in return. I call those people in my life either, uhm, Deluded or Nuisances. They just don't seem to get the message that you don't want them around that much. It can be quite trying for myself personally, as I know that Christ would want me to love them anyway. Can anyone else think of a "classification" for this type?

5. Prego came up with a neat one....Friends-in-law. These are the friends that come with a relationship. Some are more bareable than others, but you be nice because you love your significant other.

6. Rashbre offered Interrupted Friends - the ones that disappear, then re-appear and we pick up as if there was no gap. I think these would be closely related to Oak Tree friends, but not necessarily so.

7. Amused Observer came up with Race Car Friends. You "take off at top speed immediately but eventually the friendship runs into a wall." This is sometimes for the best too! Sometimes it's unneeded heartbreak as it's over something stupid.

8. Burglars was shared by Plumbkrazzee. These are High Mainteneance Friends that don't hang around long. And we all breathe a sigh of relief over that.

9. Silent Friends are the ones you don't even think of until it's too late and they're gone. Blessings and comfort to Darnelle Packard's familyu as they mourn her this week. She was 27, had severe diabetes...and was nice to me on the school bus when we were in school together.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Types of Friends

The other night, the friend that I watch tv and movies with was sharing something she had learned from a MOPS meeting. About the two different types of friends. Since that discussion, I've realized that there are at least 2 more types of friends and goofball that I am, I thought I'd share it all with you! Don't you feel lucky and special? :)

1. Mushroom Friends: These friends spring up over night and are in our lives just for a season. Kind of like the friends I made in school. The season is way over as I didn't even get Christmas cards from them this year [yes, I sent them cards].

2. Oak Tree Friends: These friendships develop slowly, starting out small and laying down deep root systems. They last forever no matter how far apart the friends grow; time, distance, oceans and death cannot break the bond of friendship. They are the kind that years after being out of communication, if they heard you were in trouble {death in family, illness, etc...} they would drop stuff to come be at your side.

3. Fair Weather Friends: We all know what this means. These are the friends that are in the relationship solely for what they can get from you, at the first sign of you needing something, or a crisis in your life, they're gone in search of greener pastures. They offer no support, no encouragement.

4. Imaginary Friends: this category is actually a conglomerate of several discriptions. They range from a child's imaginary friend [I wonder if "Arthur" got off the bus yesterday?] to hallucinations [like Dave from "Lost"] to deceivers pretending to be your friend. They're not real and are illusions.

And as I was typing, I decided to take one out of Imaginary Friends and give it its own category.

5. Blog Friends: Some are Mushrooms. Other's become Oak Trees. Some are almost Imaginary, but not quite. They are as real as the people you can see around you, and their invisibility to you and your life does not diminish their friendship at all.


Can you think of any others?

Saturday, April 01, 2006

I did

Ok. Got a new segment of the Trek story put up.

It's been a slow rainy day..well, I take that back the sun just poke its nose through the clouds. Still been slow. I was out late last night watching movies at a friend's house [a different one]. We watch "The Notebook" and "Flightplan". And when her husband came home, he shared his chocolate dipped mint Oreo cookies! Yum!

Had dance practice this morning. We're getting ready for our Easter presentation. Practice would go so much easier if that one didn't have to fret so much. Just relax...we don't have to have everything down pat today...that's why it's called "practice"!

Waiting on my phone call from England, which I managed to almost type wrong again, Jean-Luc, no doubt making you smile.

Afterwards, I shall dump the trash here at the library and then go home and do laundry---YIPPEE!!!