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Worth It All

I have a problem with depression. It won't go away!!!!!!!!

There have been times in my life that have been extremely dark...pain that can't be understood by those around me...a loneliness that covers me like a cloak even when in a crowded room. What usually comes out of these times, is poetry. Sometimes they have a prophetic edge..when I know that the words that I write aren't my own, but they are what God is saying to me to encourage me.

Today I had a friend read some of the poems I have posted on my poetry site One of the things that she said was that three of the poems really touched her, they hit upon times in her past. She named them off..."I Can See You" "My Savior's Arms" and "One Woman Alone"...and all three of them were written in times like I just described above. I was so moved by this, that I teared right up and cried a little.

There is something almost comforting in knowing that something good came out of something that felt so bad. It made me feel a little less alone. Makes those times worth it. Perhaps there is a reason for those times of darkness after all. I wonder if I will ever know how many people benefit from my poems...maybe someday...

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Jean-Luc Picard said…
Many people have these feelings, Ciera, you are never the only one.

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