Window Into My Reality

"Thinking of You" by: myself I think of you in the darkness of night When all has fallen silent and I am left alone I imagine your arms around me And can almost feel the warmth of your breath on my cheek I think of you in the brightness of day When life is busy and the world is rushing me along I imagine you pulling me aside Just to smile and tell me of your love I think of you when I pray When God bends His ear to me I ask for His blessings in your life And for His angels to protect you Wherever I am, whatever I am doing You are not far from my thoughts And I just wanted to let you know That I'm thinking of you.

Been busy this week - which is good. Emailing. Driving bus. Babysitting. Dog sitting. Staying out of trouble, which is a full time occupation. Reading. Even though all the meetings at church ended up getting cancelled this week and everyone I hang with is gone to a conference. Still busy. Which is good. Trying to put together a cool fictional blog entry but it's been noisy in the library this week. Have a few minutes now to work on it.

Oh my gosh. I saw "Valiant" last night,[[second and last date]]. That has to be one of the worst movies ever made. Sure it had a few funny moments, but I sure wouldn't want to see it again. No way, no how. You couldn't pay me enough. The best line in the entire movie was when the pidgeon Valiant said, "aren't you a little short for a nursing dove?" which reminded me of Princess Leia's line in Star Wars to Luke, "Aren't you a little short for a stormtrooper". I laughed so hard at that - I actually choked on my soda. Not much else to say about the date. We talked for about half an hour before hand, and I almost said, "I'm sorry I can't do this" but he'd already bought the tickets and so I was stuck. Afterwards, when he asked when he could see me again, I hedged and said I'd let his sister know. Actually, he tied setting up the next date before we'd even gotten started with this one. Like - plan our...

It's that time again. For Michele's weekend Meet-n-Greet. Some frown, but others gleefully play. Here's a question for all who visit here, whether on your own or from Michele's: Last night during a prayer meeting, I had a memory flash through my mind. More like the shadow of the memory. I was five years old or younger and I was begging my father for a peanut butter cake. I really wanted one, and even though I was interupting the adult conversation and probably being a regular brat...my Dad quit what he was doing to search for a recipe for a peanut butter cake...uhm, I don't think he ever found one so he made me a chocolate one with peanut butter frosting. This is probably the best memory I have of my father. So - what is your favorite childhood memory?????

And I don't mean your nose. School Days Blues: I have some pretty good kids on my bus. Sure - they're noisy and have a tendancy to hang out in the aisle and swing their coats around, but they're still pretty good. One of the little girls on the other bus had her feelings hurt this afternoon as they were going out to the busses and she started screaming. Not just crying, but screaming like someone had twisted her arm or something. Not a pretty sound. All because she couldn't go first in the line. And the sad thing is - they couldn't get her to calm down and she was still screaming like that when they put her on the bus. Kids Church: Awwww. they sang to me last night. Min baked a caked for me and did up a little card and had the kids sing, "Thanks and blessings to you" to the tune of happy birthday. I was quite touched. I mean, the kids are happy to see her come back, and sad to see me go...even though I'll still be serving as a back up. Thou...

Tonight is my last night teaching kids church on Wednesday nights. I'm not sure how I feel about this. I think it's been bothering me more than I would be willing to admit. It's not like I'll never get to see them again, or even teach them because we all go to the same church and I am going to be like a backup teacher for when Min can't make it. And can you believe - I've had three changes to my bus route in two days! Very frustrating. On one hand this is good because it's more mileage for the boss and if the boss is happy....u know. On the other hand...my routes are longer!!! It can get tiring sitting in that seat for over an hour. Of course, I'm getting a bew bus too - - - which has a radio in it!!! wooohoooo! Now once the kids are off, I can listen to Chip Ingram on the way home. Or at least half of it. Ok. checking email now.

I am feeling very insecure today, and don't feel like posting anything. I have nothing to say. Well, there's some anger, but like always it'll blow over. And there is some hurt. But will have to ignore it. I just can't handle it right now. Or I don't want to. The problem is - I don't even have words to describe what I'm feeling right now, because honestly I'm having a "Life sucks" kind of day. ok. maybe later.