Window Into My Reality

Okay, so I'm not really going to the chapel. Just the local Justice of the Peace. Tomorrow afternoon my partner of almost five years and I are legally tying the knot and getting married. I am: excited, nervous, flouting on cloud nine, and brain dead all at once. I can't believe that he's finally changed his mind about marriage, but I can see how happy he is now that he's decided to go ahead with it. I didn't even believe him until we bought the marriage license on Wednesday (Pennsylvania has a three day waiting period). It all started Saturday after his great-grandmother's funeral. We stood around his parent's truck with his parents discussing marriage. Which for the past few years has been in his ballpark as I've been asking him on and off if he'd marry me LOL! And then on the way home conversation followed, not all of it happy. We may have sat in the same room for a few minutes and then I just went to the bedroom and watched TV for a while....

Well, just a quick note to say that I've just discovered the Blogger app....and for some reason it makes me exceedingly happy. It makes blogging from my iPhone easier. Especially for poetry. I'm silly, I know. Lol

I hate feeling poorly on the weekends.  I mean, finally! It's a day I don't have to be up before the sun, I can snuggle in bed with my honey, putter around the house at my own speed and do whatever I want!  And all I want to do is lounge in bed, because I feel blah. I was reading about the payroll taxes going up 2% earlier today and I realized that if we get a 2% cost of living raise in June like we did last year...I'll only go back to bringing home what I was last year.  Unless the company is doing well and we get a 3% raise like the year before.  But since we barely hit 33 hours this past week (8 of which were holiday pay) it's not looking good.  Maybe it'll turn around though, it has before. At least with 33 hours next paycheck will be better than this last one.  Because bad weather made travel difficult...and my ride chickened out, and my backup plan failed, I missed one day Christmas week that resulted in me losing 3 days pay.  I lost holiday ...

So here I am a day late to say, "Happy New Year!" Didn't do much for New Years Eve...had a glass of wine at a friend's house and was in bed by 9:30 and was out before 10:30!  How time has changed me!  I used to have no problem staying up that late...ever!  I used to work nightshift for crying out loud! Ah well.  Hopefully this year will have more good than bad, though one never knows.  I've had an aunt diagnosed with breast cancer, allegedly a non-hereditary version (I've never heard of that).  My brother Duane is to have his gallbladder out, and was served divorce papers just before Christmas (nice...not).  And I've been diagnosed with multiple ovarian cysts and a fibroid tumor...nothing to worry about I've been told, but that doesn't stop the stray thoughts of worry that cross my mind every once in a while!  I see an OBGYN next week to discuss my options.  Oh yay. But things could be worse, so I can't complain too much! ttyl ppls

Just rambling tonight. Our hours are dropping off at work.  Which is both good and bad.  It's good because 45+ hours a week gets old after a while, so exhausting especially in 40 degree weather lol and it's also good because my lokcing fingers don't lock quite as often or as hard as they were.  Well, they don't hurt as much anyway lol! And it's bad because those paychecks were awful dang nice!  Like everyone else, I need the money honey!  Especially since Justin's main 'job' is playing Halo Wars all the time.  At least he's begun helping do some chores around the house...'women's work' my ass! This is sad.  I think all day of stuff that I want to write and blog, and then I get here and I'm just like "Blah" and there's nothing there.  Of course, Justin's moved his Xbox in here so it's not quiet anymore.  But the flip side of that is that I can go to sleep without having to listen to him playing.  I could do wi...