OK. I will admit it. I have a strange fascination with Batman. I don' t know why exactly, but I do. Wasn't a big fan of Michael Keaton as the Dark Knight, or George Clooney, but did like Val Kilmer. But they gave the new movie to someone other than Tim Burton so it wasn't as comic booky. Although the Scarecrow scenes with the hallucenogenic drug was a bit...intensely gross. Anyhow.......the best line and lesson in the movie is a phrase Bruce Wayne's father says near thebeginning. "Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves back up."
And so that put my week into a whole different perspective, doesn't it. While I would get into trouble for saying that I learned a spiritual lesson from a "worldy secular" movie - I did.
Verses from the bible: Psalm 37:24 "Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; for the Lord upholds him with His hand." Psalm 145:14 "The Lord upholds all who fall, and raises up all who are bowed down." James 3:2a "For we all stumble in many things."
And so. My friend shall have to take care of herself. For far too long it has been that where ever she has gone spiritually, I have followed. Whatever place she is at, that causes her to hate me enough to call me names, I will not go any further into that place of darkness myself. And I was. Didn't realize it completely at first, but I have now and I say "Thus far and no more".
It's going to be lonely. Yeah, I know that God is always with me and all that, even when I can't feel Him. But honestly...I'm very much alone right now, and yes, lonely. Oh, there are those in church who have said that I can talk to them anytime about my present pain, and that they wouldn't tell a soul......but I must say, that I don't trust them very much. I mean, I can't quite explain it, but I get the "feeling" that these persons are like wolves sensing a hurt lamb, or pirahana's smelling blood. Well, if fish smell. I'm not saying that I don't love those who have offered their shoulder to me. But I am not going to cry on them. I am working very heard not to shed my tears of hurt in public. Been doing a so-so job at it. Crying about it here doesn't count as public, although in a sense it is.
I think I'm going to check and see if I have enough money for ice cream, I'm having a hankoring for Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey. Complete change is subject, can you tell?! LOL.
Actually, I have to go back home and get my computer disk because I forgot it. Duh.